Monday, 30 June 2008

A Record

i've never been this frenzy! five blogs a day!

i'm in a sketching frenzy... and James McAvoy is my current victim!

Four too many!

i know i know... four blogs in one day.

what was i thinking??!

Andy Roddick mu was Andy Roddick ku...

the key word is WAS! hahah...

i used to love andy roddick. now not anymore. i've grown out of it, i guess.

during that time of my mega admiration towards him... i had 75 sketches of him and i find it embarrassing to admit... verbally that is.

these are a few of my best works.

Understand this...

we all can be a jerk at times. but so can you. the issue is... do you realize it?

because i do. i am fully aware of my actions and the consequences. and i know i can fix it. but i can't control what you would think. i am not that powerful.

so because of that, because i care, i try to be as nice as i can.

don't start telling me about what a jerk i am when you have been a jerk and i haven't said anything about it.

because i know when or where i screw up and i can fix it... i don't need you telling me because it doesn't make things easier. it makes me feel like shit. and i don't need that from you.

understand this - i don't just stay and live for the moment without considering the consequences of my actions. either good or bad, i am fully aware of it... and i can fix it.

if you let me...

Art PortFolio

i just started sketching again. sketching is something i've done since i was small. and i can't remember exactly what my drawings was nor kept my drawings back then... but i remember them being awful.

then when i was 13, i started sketching portraits of people. my first was leonardo dicaprio's ;) back then titanic was like a huge thing so... anyway, the sketch was probably in the dumpster or drain... somewhere... it was horrible, that was why.

over 3 years, i started developing my interest. with my art teacher discovering what i have and she was the one that initiated me. in class, we were told to keep out sketches in a loose binding folder. of course, when it's loose, it got lost.

so when i was 16, i decided i should have a sketchbook and have been keeping my drawings since then, either terrible or good... i don't mind. there's indescribable satisfaction when i look through them.

8 years and 10 volumes of sketch book later...

i'm going to post my previous drawings on my blogs next time!

Friday, 27 June 2008

U got... Dihendaki, Jolok!

Yesterday i went to meet my friends back in matrix to discuss about our holiday plan to Malacca. yeah , we're just going to Malacca... nothing extravagant. anyway, a member was turning up late so my good friend (who is so friggin hillarious and she showed up at Pyramid with a tie-die pants) started to crack up crazy riddles.

the first one was:
Q: if you're standing behind a car, what will the car say?
A: "You got exhausted!"

and the second one goes like this:
Q: if you're standing in front of a car, what will the car say?
A: "You got tired"

hahah... ok it wasn't that funny but the fact she took the liberty to do so while we waited for the other friend and with such passion in delivering it by making a '3D' loser sign with her hand, every time we guessed wrong. a '3D' loser sign is something she made up so that we can see the word 'L' in all angles.

cheesy. but it's funny.

i can always count on her for ridiculous humour. u can never imagine what she would come up with.

after dinner, we all went and catch a movie "wanted". the movie just came out and i desperately wanted to see my hero, James McAvoy. since it's a weekday and i bet there's not many people are going to see, i seized the opportunity by booking in advance. we thought of not claiming the tickets first because we thought no one wanted to watch but luckily we changed our minds and claimed it because it was a full house that night. the movie was brilliant... even if it sucked, i still love my scotsman :) i thought it was a serious typical hitman movie... but apparently, there were a lot of humour and we were laughing hysterically.

anyone watched the trailer? there was this part were angelina jolie was driving a red viper (i think) and she drifted the car to take in James in the passenger side? man that was a cool stunt... but i didn't expect people would clap at the end of the scene. it felt like we were in a circus show. but yeah, the movie did felt like a circus show that night. it was fun.

after the movie, guess what my crazy friend came up with? she started mimicking "wanted" scenes in malay. first translating "wanted" into Malay and pretending she was jolie... only in the malay version, she claimed to be angelina jolok! haha... and jolie's character in the movie is 'fox' whilst jolok's version is called 'musang'. i think i inhaled too much oxygen from the laughing, i actually felt light and was driving a little carelessly. we almost got hit by a car and got a sarcastic greeting from a toll-gate girl. but let me assure u that the almost-accident part wasn't my fault.

so despite a bad end to the night, it was fun.

can't wait for the road trip to Malacca!

Thursday, 26 June 2008

i so can relate to this... har har har!

Wednesday, 25 June 2008

Architects are like Prostitutes

1. You work weird (night time) -
Overtime ...
Just like prostitutes.

2. They pay you to make the client happy...
Just like a prostitute.

3. The client pays a lot of money, but
your employer keeps almost every
Just like a prostitute.

4. You are rewarded for fulfilling the
client's dreams...
Just like a prostitute.

5. Your friendships fall apart and you
end up hanging out with people in
the same profession as you...
Just like a prostitute.

6. When you have to meet the client you
always have to be perfectly
Just like a prostitute.

7. But when you go back home it seems
like you are coming back from
Just like a prostitute.

8. The client always wants to pay less
but expects incredible things
from you...
Just like a prostitute.

9. When people ask you about your job,
you have difficulties to explain
Just like a prostitute.

10. Everyday when you wake up, you say:
"I'm not going to spent the rest
of my life doing this."
Just like a prostitute.

-got this from a jr's blog-

Tuesday, 24 June 2008

The Last King of Scotland

I just recently saw the movie from the satellite TV network system. i missed the first hour of the movie. and since my Scottish hero is on, i decided to stay glued to the TV, even though it frustrates me not knowing how Dr. Garrigan and the previous Ugandan president, Idi Amin met.

Only when my mother, who was a history teacher, joined me to watch that I only find out that the movie was based on actual events. The dictator/president character was based on a real-life character. Idi Amin was a Muslim... and it scared me to know the fact that a Muslim leader can be so terrifying when Islam is all about peace and humility. and it makes me appreciate more that I'm here in Malaysia, although facing political and economic instability, I still feel safe.

Dr. Garrigan 's character was Idi Amin's physician. Although his character was fictional, it was one that caught me (not the fact that James McAvoy played it). Although missing the whole section where he and Idi Amin officially met, i understand that he came to Uganda in need of recognition. however, after 6 years of being Idi Amin's closest advisor, he suddenly realized that his need for recognition has blinded him. It makes me think that we shouldn't just stay and live for the moment without considering of the consequences of our actions. Yes, we all want to achieve so many things and be recognized, be known, needed, wanted, loved or let me put in Jerry Maguire's term - we all want the 'kwan'.

but let's not forget the kwans we already have - our families and friends.

but bravo to Forest Whitaker for his performance as Idi Amin. He earned his Oscar for best actor. At first, i resented his win because i thought Leonardo Dicaprio should earn it for his performance in the Departed. but after i saw this movie, i finally found out that his acting outperformed dicaprio's by a mile.

Monday, 23 June 2008

It's not just about the right time...

so i have been repeatedly asked by traditional, conservative mothers the FAQ - when am i going to get married?

by my age, these traditional and conservative mothers are already married or some even already have their first child by now. not to say being traditional and conservative is bad. half of my friends are married or already have their first child by now. they're lucky they've found someone they love and want to spend the rest of their lives with.

so maybe my journey for 'the one' is a little further than the rest. so maybe it is the right time for me to get married... but marriage is not about because it's the right time to get married, it's also about finding the right person to be married to.

yeah... i maybe a little picky. but its actually more that, well metaphorically speaking, i just haven't found someone who is made to finish my duet (hahah! thanks to Enchanted). so i can't say i'm picky. because all the criterias that i want in a guy has been completely useless. i have no criterias at all now. when he's the one, he's the one... even if the guy has all the total opposite of the criterias u have in ur list.

so we are all growing old and the time might have been right for us to settle down all along since we reached puberty but hey, if u haven't find the right person yet, would u want to be married just simply it was the time to?

no right?

so what's wrong with waiting a little longer, what's wrong with being miserable watching everyone else with their happily ever after so that u can eventually find yours?

because it's not just about the right time...

(with reference from mrs. faiza mohd fauzi and from the movie - definitely maybe)

Saturday, 21 June 2008

Sebastian and Rosalinda

this is a funny video done by UM architecture student... (i'm only part as the audience and not the makers). won first runner up of the USM workshop 2008 for the animation category! good job, guys!


Saturday, 7 June 2008


Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

by sarah mclachlan

sarah mclachlan is a beautiful singer/songwriter, who may not seem the most popular singer next to britney spears alike... but only because she was hardly given justice by Malaysian fans.

Tuesday, 3 June 2008


have u ever feel like u have everything in this world but still feel like u miss something? it makes u even more sad that u actually don't know what's missing.
how can u appreciate what u have when u feel empty?
are we all on the right track in getting what we want in this world?
maybe it is more meaningful if we do it for God and for afterlife...

maybe we should all just quit... whatever we are doing

and meditate...

*i miss my cat... dani! come home please! save us the embarrassment of circulating posters of u to our neighbours and extended neighbours!

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Or will we end up getting hurt
Is this love a myth
So tell me are you in for this
There's so much more than we can see
More than you
More than me
It takes two to believe!

Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why when you're young you fall in love

And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love

by the click 5