lost item

merintih dlm BM sedap sket...

aku kehilangan bateri extra canon ixus 60 ciplak berharga rm60 di bangunan sultan abd samad. tulahhh, aritu aku ngn amy menggedik2 kt bangunan tu. kitorg amik gambar kt kandang pesalah, berlakun mcm penjenayah kt mahkamah. main2 mic kt situ. amik gambar corridor, amy plak berlakun jd hantu kt situ... mase tu la bateri tu dah kong, aku gi tukar, pastu tak terus masuk bag... letak kt riba. bila dah habis menggedik2, aku terus bangun. tak sedar plak bateri tu tergolek. pastu amik gambar lg kt menara dia sebelum balik. dekat pukul 9 mlm kut, aku nk charge bateri tu... carik2 dah tade... waaa sedey... igt nk pegi sane blk carik... tp aku rs dah takde...

sejurus selepas amik gambar ni la, bateri aku hilang... sadissss...

pengajaran: jgn tergedik2 kt bgnan sultan abd samad... kan dah hilang bateri camera

it's about time...

@ 23 years and 22 days, im
- graduating from first degree, which supposed to be last year
- continuing study for the next two years (i hope!) if not, then three years.
in the mean time, i am...
- coaching first years on their measured drwgs (if i am much of a help)
- a free-lance draftwoman for an architect with COD payment
so i can
- support myself and not depend on my parents since i am TWENTY-THREE already!
- make new friends and bridge the gap between senior and juniors and also the gap between a student and a lecturer (deep eh?)
but sometime in july,
- im continuing for my Bachelor in Architecture (and finish it in 2 years!)
- get my act together and hope my family and friends support me all the way

no more delays, please... because @ 23, and perhaps the only one among my friends, who isnt standing on her own two feet... it's about time.

In Vain...

i woke up last sunday 8th april @ 12pm and headed straight to studio to finish my work for my portfolio review. we were suppose to submit it on the 10th for our lecturers' assessments. after finish ammending my drawings, i opened my photoshop tuesday morning (the day we were supposed to submit). it was 5 am... and then the moment i tried to open my drawing in photoshop, the computer got stuck that i had to restart. then the same thing happened again whenever i tried to use the photoshop. after some 10 reboots, i got fed-up and decided that i should just submit in black and white first and thought that i'd pin the coloured ones after the assessment.
so from sunday to tuesday, i only managed a 1hr nap twice. that tuesday night, i could stay home and get the rest i need but then, i need to use someone else's computer that night. so that night, i knew that most of the students would probably be sleeping so i took that opportunity to borrow my friend's computer for the night to colour my drawings in photoshop. her computer has a 2gb ram that when i want to save a 100mb photoshop file, i haven't even start to blink, it already finished saving. so i did my work up to 3am. i slept by 4am until 12pm the next day.
the very next day, new project starts. this project was a group work. the submission was due friday. and i was in charge of the presentation board. and i also had my part to do the research on. also, on that day, i had to go to my old office to print my individual presentation boards. i did my work as far as i could manage and at 6pm i left for my office. by the time i was done, it was already 9pm. so i went back to the studio and finished up my group work.
i didn't sleep up to thursday. only a few 30-min naps. and today was the portfolio review. it's actually like an exam for us with all the lecturers from architecture department assessing our individual works. this is when the descision whether you fail or not is made. usually with my effort, i would get a pass... but since the Lembaga Akitek Malaysia is coming for accreditation so my effort, just like how my last batch did, is not enough. they had to be strict this year because our faculty needed to maintain that accreditation. it is very important for us. no accreditation means no part2 and that means no architect. so we all got a scold from all the lecturers saying that our work is not enough to earn that accreditation...
somehow, i felt... despite my lack of sleeping and resting... despite my endless efforts... i felt that my efforts was in vain... everytime i try to work and forget the past, i just simply can't stop thinking about how much efforts i've put into my work and i get no credits out of it. at one moment, i felt like giving up. i felt like taking a break for a few years before coming back for 4th year (that if i graduate). all through my 4 years here... i've lived with uncertainty. there are no right or wrong, black or white in architecture. they're all very subjective... and i'm not doing it for the heck for doing it. i'm doing it because i'm living my passion but somehow i think my lecturers are making a hell out of it... sometimes they made me wonder to the point where i don't know what i want anymore. they're lecturers, for heaven's sake! aren't they suppose to encourage students? not discourage or demotivates them?
i don't know what i or other students, who felt the same, should do... right now, i just so so wish i would make it through. if i flunk this again... then i really don't know what will become of me... just a few months ago it was all clear to me... gosh, how i wish i could still see as clearly now. i've never been so worried about my future so much and yet, i'm writing a blog. i guess there's a bit of contradiction but like i said in my first blog, when i have to let it out, i have to let it out! just a little advice...

know what you want and go for it! despite whether it's in vain or not, it's a different story... the most important thing is that you do your best.

i wish i could force myself to say that from the heart :\

i don't love you

When you go

Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay

And maybe when you get back

I'll be off to find another way

When after all this time that you still owe

You're still, the good-for-nothing I don't know

So take your gloves and get out

Better get out

While you can

When you go

Would you even turn to say

"I don't love you

Like I didYesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading

So sick and tired of all the needless beating

But baby when they knock you

Down and out

It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe

Another dollar's just another blow

So fix your eyes and get up

Better get up

While you can

Whoa, whooa

When you go

Would you even turn to say

"I don't love you

Like I didYesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go

Would you have the guts to say

"I don't love you

Like I loved youYesterday"

I don't love you

Like I loved you

Yesterday

I don't love youLike

I loved you

Yesterday

it's my current favourite song. eventhough it doesn't sound very romantic or very gentlemanly of gerard if he did what he sang. but the song brings a meaning that you might think that special someone is your life companion... the one that steals your heart... the only one that you will love and cherish... in sickness, in health... for better or worse... for richer or poorer... may not be the same person the next morning...

today

>>>--begin-->

model in the making...

venue: 3rd yr studio, built environment faculty
time: 430am

ZZzzzZzz... huh??... ZzzZzzzz... krohhh~...

venue: residence, ss3
time: between 5 am to 7 am to 130pm

~SaLute KiNG KoNG!
new faculty of built environment
proposed by too kean kong

venue: exhibition hall, built environment faculty

time: 330pm

R0ad Trip!

discovered an inconvenient truth...
venue: somewhere in selangor
time: 430pm to 700pm

BBQ~ ArCHi NiTe...

venue: back in the old faculty of built environment

time: 830pm

today = priceless

but let's hope for a better tomorrow

<--END---<<<

astaka + MSSA competition

i joined astaka competition about more than a year ago. but i just had to blog this down. in this competition, there is the preliminary round where there were supposed to be hundreds of submission but that year (2005), with no representatives from UiTM so they were only 50 competitors. my school, UM school of architecture sent 3 group representatives. for those who don't know what astaka is, it's a stage where people held the annual 'Tilawah Al-Quran' competition. every year JKR (Jabatan Kerja Raya) hold this astaka design competition so they'd use the winning design as the official astaka for the Quran recital competition.

we were told only one week before the submission. we did the design n model all within the week. it was so chaotic that it even crossed my mind to forfeit. luckily we didn't. we had problems with the 3rd member n then appointed Soon Yau, who has the greatest magnificent workmanship in the whole world, to do our model. and the submission day was nerve-wrecking, all the designs were terrific n brilliant with superb craftmanship on the models. i presented to 2 judges but wasn't sure if we would get chosen for top10. then the next day was the official day for the submission, presented to a lot of people but i lost count. most of them werent judges though. my mother n my 9-month pregnant sister actually came! as i said, i was glad we didn't forfeit because when the announcement was made, ours were announced in the 2nd last. so we made it. n i was happy... all that lack of sleep and hard work completely paid off. but unfortunately we lost in the 2nd round. i guess the judges didn't want anything too unconventional or contemporary like ours. anyway, lots of other architects and managements complimented on our design. we didn't make it to top5. but overall, i was satisfied with how my team worked together and made it through a tough moment and then beating 49 other competitors to make it to the top10.

currently i'm joining this biotech centre competition organized by Malaysian Steel Structural Association (MSSA). i did the design and presentation board in less than a week. i was pretty stressed out because the submission was so close to my final submission. but somehow i managed to pull it off and submit both on time. i was pretty sure we wouldn't get through to the top10 for the MSSA competition but just last week, a friend, a teammate rang me up and told me that we made it to the top10 out of 70 submissions. it was shocking because i really didn't give my all for the design. so there you have it... i'm proud that i made at least to top10's for both competitions. Not to flatter myself but it makes me wonder how i could flunk my final semester when i've been reaching top10's for design competitions. hmm... hmmm...

You Know You're In Architecture When...

i think more than half what is written down here is true about me... sad, huh?

01.the alarm clock tells you when to go to sleep.

02.youre not ashamed of drooling in studio/class anymore, especially in the Structure lectures.

03.you know what UHU tastes like.

04.you CELEBRATE space and OBSERVE your birthday.

05.coffee and cokes are tools, not treats.

06.people get nauseous just by smelling your caffeine breath.

07.you get surprised when you see a new building in your school compound.

08.you think its possible to CREATE space.

09.youve slept more than 20 hours non-stop in a single week-end.

10.you fight with inanimate objects.

11.youve fallen asleep in the washroom.

12.your brother or sister thinks he or she is an only child.

13.youve listened to all your cds in less than 48 hours.

14.youre not seen in public.

15.you lose your house keys for a week and you dont even notice.

16.youve brushed your teeth and washed your hair in the facultys washroom.

17.youve discovered the benefits of having none or very short hair. Youve started to appreciate inheriting baldness.

18.youve used an entire role of film to photograph the sidewalk.

19.you know the exact time the vending machines are refilled.

20.you always carry your deodorant.

21.you become excellent at recycling when making models.

22.when you try to communicate, you make a continuous and monotonous whine.

23.you take notes and messages with color markers.

24.you combine breakfast, lunch, and dinner into one single meal.

25.you see holidays only as extra sleeping time.

26.youve got more photographs of buildings than actual people.

27.youre realized that French curves are not that exciting!!

28.you can live without human contact, food or daylight, but if you cant print, its chaos.

29.when you are being shown pictures of a trip, you ask what the human scale is.

30.you can use Photoshop, Illustrator and make a web page, but you dont know how to use excel.

31.you refer to great architects (dead or alive) by their first name, as if you knew them. (Frank, Corbu, Mies, Norman)

32.when someone offers you a kilometrico pen, you feel offended.

Addition (according to my personal opinion)
33. instead of shopping, u actually go to shopping malls to study construction
34. you treat MPH n kinokuniya like a library