Thanks for the memories

a friend of mine passed this morning. she was just 31. she had been coughing for the last 3months. when she started coughing out blood, she finally went to the hospital. what suspected to be a case of TB became the case of lung cancer. by the time, they found out, it was already at stage 4 and was spreading to her spine, causing her to paralyze from waist down.

and she was 7 months pregnant at the time.

i'm still stunned by the fact that she is no longer with us. she was the one who gave warm welcome to me when i started my practical training... she never fail to invite me for lunch, or an outting to OU during the long friday lunch breaks... we gossiped about the people in the office... i visited her home, met her 2 very young kids and husband.

she was one who takes care of her health. she reads the ingredients before she consumes them (makes sure that theyre healthy). she never smokes! never fond of it anyway. when i found out she was battling cancer... i just couldnt believe it. for someone as young and fit as she was... and it felt just like yesterday, we both had lunch, laughing and talking about our last trip to Bali. and now i'm speaking of her in past tense...

when she was diagnosed of stage 4 cancer, the doctors advised that the baby must be taken out. she even texted everyone that her chances of survival was very slim. and she apologized for any of her wrong-doings and she also forgave us. i visited her last monday and that was hours before the c-section is carried out. although she looked frail but somehow she looked so strong... apparently nodding and waving at me like we're having normal conversation.

on tuesday, i was relieved with the news that both baby and mother are in stable condition. although she was still unconscious, i was hoping that she would revive somehow.

but only her baby survived... but she did not. and i'm sorry i couldn't attend the tahlil.

Al-Fatihah...

and k.rida, thanks for the memories...

let us hope that there will be a better tomorrow.