A Better Tomorrow

When People of The Book Fight...

2010-01-10T21:29:00.002+08:00

Christians and Jews are listed as People of the Book in the Quran. Because these religions originated are funneled through One God and through the same prophets. That is why Moses, Jacob, Joseph, David, Noah, Abraham are listed in the respective religions holy books. However, as years passed, the interpretation of God has 'developed'... Jews were a lot more associated with teachings of Moses, Christians with Jesus and Islam with Mohammad (PBUH). but they are basically the same teachings... as they rooted from the same prophets and God.

Religious war took place since the beginning of time and yet till now... somehow religion that brings the idea of peace and harmony has resulted in violence and wars. I don't want to be discussing the reasons... the reasons might not be the issue of spreading the religion but maybe imperialism.

but i do want to discuss the reason why this blog arises. recently, the High Court has agreed to allow the Catholic weekly magazine, the herald to use the word Allah in its articles. However, the question arises from there... Why Allah? are we preaching about the same God?

no, we don't! Allah is the term we use to refer to God in Islam... while Catholics refer to Holy Trinity (where i was told that Catholics believe that God comes in 3 forms) - One God(not Allah), Holy Ghost and Jesus Christ.

we Muslims don't believe that God comes in any representations. He is One... and He is Allah SWT... definitely not the same God that is referred to by Catholics.

The Herald said 'Allah' is used to replace the term 'God' in Malay... however, if the word 'God' is translated into Malay... the word can be as 'Tuhan' where it is more general... by using 'Allah', it will definitely cause confusion... because it is definitely not the same God as the Catholics believe in. hence, there are many Muslims who do not agree when this was commissioned.

And again... religions that should deliver the teachings of patience is a virtue has turned humans against each other. Someone burned a few churches down last week... and then mosques are also being vandalized. To prove what exactly? vandalism and arson can prove nothing... but only to make matters worse than it already is.

what is the point of fighting for your religion but go against your morals and ethics and also going against the teachings and principles of a religion (regardless of Islam or Christian or Judaism)in the first place? I am pretty sure that there are definitely other non-childish, sinless way to be heard...

where are our Muslim lawyers and leaders??!

NEW authentic Coach for SALE!!

2010-01-04T23:42:00.019+08:00

-not my usual blog post... just helping out my mom to sell them -

NEW authentic Coach handbag

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# Interior large zip pocket with mirrored leather Coach creed
# One multifunction pocket
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# Satin fabric lining
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reference for scale... pls ignore the boa's... hehehe... big bird came to interframe :P

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Measurements : 12.5 (L) x 9.5(H) x 2.5 (W)"
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# Cutout charm and hang tag details
# Inside zip pocket
# Cellphone/multifunction pockets
# Ring to clip an accessory or keyfob
# Fabric lining
# Zip-top closure
# Inc. dust bag

a photo reference for scale

Two is Definitely Better than One ;)

2010-01-03T23:11:00.005+08:00

I'm in a sappy mood so sue me... :P

Boys Like Girls : Two Is Better Than One

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the best of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the best of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the best of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the best of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two Thousand and Nine

2009-12-29T21:53:00.006+08:00

2009 marks a significant year for me... not that i asked for a less complicated year or a better year. it has just been an interesting yearbook... and i'd look back on it anytime :)

the most embarrassing moment to date
i'd simply answer it was sometime in March 2009, where i broke down during a presentation and hyperventilated in front of an audience of 20 people or so. and conveniently, it happened in the middle of an exhibition hall, so that helped to further amplify my squeaks throughout the whole space. it was just so uncontrollable and no one came to my aid, i guess they were completely awed by the display (or they were worried i might turn into Incredible Hulk soon :P). for the first few days, it was too much of an embarrassment to talk about it. but when life gives u a lemon, give life a 'twist' ;D so after a while, i just make a joke out of it... just to get some lightness into the situation :) but to be honest, that was one of the most horrifically embarrassing episodes i wouldn't want to be in again... everrrrrr!

career
being an architect had been my ambition for 13 years. so in late April 2009, i finished my 5-gruelling-years-that-took-me-6-bloody-years-instead course and acquired a degree in August 2009. having that ambition helped me focus and help me know what i want and work towards it. why had i picked this ambition? i was a lot into arts... i wouldn't say i was gifted but i had passion for it and my mom sent me for art classes and that improved my art skills. and having my dad in the construction industry does influence me a lot. i guess architecture is a combination of both science and art... hence i took a profession that has both subjects that i am really passionate about.

love life
i'm not a type of person who easily falls for someone. i don't believe love comes that easy. it's not that simple. and i don't believe that love can be dimissed by a break-up... i think it's forever embedded inside of u despite how bad it turns out in the end. Because u gotta love something that's 'real' and 'worthwhile'... and that happened to me for the first time ever in November 2009...

with the exception of first topic, i hope to continue my diary in 2010 :)

See you in 2010! feliz año nuevo!! God bless :-*****

Vows

2009-11-19T00:33:00.002+08:00

i ridiculously took a vow - from now on, the only money i take out from my bank account is only to pay off my car n the minimal necessities to survive on monthly basis...

but if i dont religiously keep it, what consequences do i get other than not getting what i want by having the vow in the first place.

what caused this inspiration is that i miss someone terribly... even just the thought of it makes me almost want to cry. but i had to be strong... because i dont know if it's worth it... besides, i have to be in my right mind to be productive at work.

never have i expressed any sort of (rather) intimate feeling for someone... well, my next vow is that this will be my first and my last... for which, i hope n pray that all goes well and there's a better tomorrow for us... even if we had to part ways :)

Things we do but never question

2009-10-24T12:44:00.003+08:00

Recently, the feud between Malaysia and Indonesia escalated. Initially, in the 1960's (if i'm not mistaken) Indonesia did not conform to the idea of creating a new country - Malaya (now known as Malaysia). Perhaps that started the feud.

And soon later, came the issue of Indonesian maids who were abused by Malaysian employers and the Indonesian republic is trying to instill the idea that if Malaysians are to hire Indonesian maids, we need to comply new conditions - that the maids are to paid minimum of RM800/month and given a day off every week.

Well, they got to acknowledge this. Indonesia has the highest percentage of Muslim, almost 90%! Which makes the country has the largest Muslim population. So the maids (which mostly are Muslims) that gone work overseas can choose between a Rm1700 in Korea and Rm450 in Malaysia, where they don't have to take care of dogs or cook pork (which are both most banned animals to make physical contact with in Islam).

Now even the littlest issues like the Indonesian beauty Manohara's scandalous marriage to Kelantanese prince and currently, the Discovery Channel documentary coverage on Malaysia mistakenly took a Balinese dance as one of Malaysia's cultural traits.

As a result, there are huge confrontations done by the Indonesians (particularly students as Malaysian MEDIA reported that they were PAID to do so) and even rumors that Malaysians are being chased out of the country. In addition to that, Indonesia recently suffered massive earthquake that cost hundreds of lives and millions of dollars. And Malaysia sent volunteers flew in to help. and so rumor has it that the people in Padang actually threw stones at the volunteers.

Have they forgotten one question? - WE ARE ALL FROM THE SAME DESCENDANTS - the MALAY archipelago region.

Not to forget, the MEDIA who acts as the informer, the middle person... they are capable of feeding us false stories and that could add fuel to the fire. Media does not really play a part to help resolve our disputes. (Mind you, i just don't trust the media nowadays...)

The feud between Malaysia and Indonesia has yet reminded me of another feud.

Malaysia and Singapore.

Which raised a question - IS IT INFERIORITY TOWARDS NEIGHBOURING COUNTRIES WHICH ARE FAR DEVELOPED THAN OURS CAUSED THE FEUD?

Think about it.

for we hope of a better tomorrow...

Fire Stone

2009-10-23T19:31:00.004+08:00

Back in high school, where most of us are still immature and of raging hormones, i used to pick up a lot of petty fights with friends. the littlest things are made a huge fuss and we ended up not speaking for days.

so i had a quarrel with my friend when i was sixteen. the matter was perhaps so small and insignificant because i have no memory what caused the quarrel in the first place. but i remembered being ridiculously annoyed and so was my friend towards me. instead of trying to resolve our differences (because we REFUSE to talk to each other), we confided into a middle person.

but the middle person fed us false stories that made the quarrel even worse. the person back stabbed me to my friend and the other around. and somehow, we found out that the middle person was not being fair in arbitrating the quarrel. instead, the person actually added fuel to the fire.

my friend and i managed to resolve our dispute in the end, without the help of the middle person.

so when i first vote for the 2008 election, the politics in Malaysia has somehow became what i went through in high school.

two parties with different views on a matter and is further provoked by a middle person -

the MEDIA

let's hope for a better tomorrow...

Gift Of A Friend

2009-10-20T12:20:00.009+08:00

A friend came upon a crossroad and she was undecided which way to turn... instead of going forward, she considered turning back and give up on her journey... even though she already walked a thousand miles and achieved so many things...

this is one of the moments where you turn to your friends and families for support. they're always there for you and will always have your back... that's a Gift of a Friend :)

all you gotta do is have faith :) and never give up...

Demi Lovato - Gift Of A Friend

Sometimes You think You'll Be Fine by Yourself
Cause a Dream is a Wish You Make all alone
Its Easy to Feel Like You Dont Need Help
But Its Harder To Walk On Your Own

You'll Change Inside
When You Realize
The World Comes To Life
and Everythings Alright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty Of All
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend

Someone Who knows When Your Lost and Your Scared
There through The Highs and The Lows
Someone You Can Count On, Someone Who Cares
Besides You Where Ever You Go

And When The Hope Crashes Down
Shattering To The Ground
You'll, You'll Feel All Alone
When You Dont Know Which Way To Go
And There's No Such Leading You On
You're Not Alone

The World Comes To Life
and Everythings Alright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty Of All
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe In
When You Believe In
You Can Believe In
The Gift of A Friend

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Chin up... you can do it, nana! we all know you can!! *HUGGGSSSS!!*

Comparisons are easily done...

2009-10-02T13:41:00.004+08:00

this post has got nothing to do with katy perry's thinking of you... but it did inspire the title a little bit :P

http://saifulislam.com/?p=6788#more-6788

here is an interesting article. it is written very well in Malay. the article mentioned about how the author's child compared his local-made mpv to his brother's luxurious Alphard. it is a pretty worry-some when ur very young children's minds are poisoned by materialism. wearing or using expensive brands would mean that we are somebody to be envied for...

for what exactly? everything in this world is temporary... whatever you bought or have will not mean anything in the after-life.

the article taught us on the real purpose of life and also how to appreciate what we have.

i particularly like the part when the author said that he didn't like it when his son compared him to his brother... and he also said, but then again, parents have compared their kids to other kids. i, myself, am still experiencing this... although the comparison is no longer within the academic achievement category, parents are likely to find other categories to begin comparing all over again :)

well let's hope it's a better tomorrow for me :D

Mother Nature's Rage

2009-09-30T20:57:00.005+08:00

my sister told me that her friend had to evacuate from her high-rise apartment because they felt the building shook. and i recalled my experience just 3 hours earlier... although i was in my car, stuck in traffic... i felt the shaking although my car was at halt. it was a good rhythmic shake that made me thought maybe it's the engine... but the shaking was so distinct that it was impossible to ignore. however, my car is brand new so i don't think it has broken down or need servicing since i just serviced it last 2000km.

i looked around, embarrassed if anyone notice my car shook. but everyone was also stuck in the traffic, minding their own business. i also thought it could be the wind... but the trees aren't shaking, even the leaves are still.

so when my sister told me about her friend's experience, it kind of hit me... i asked if it happened around 6-630pm and when she said yes, it confirmed my doubt. i did felt the earth shake...

and then came the 8 o'clock news about an earthquake centred near Sumatera... thousands of miles away and what i felt was only a tiny ripple... imagine what would happen if it was the centre...

and there was the earthquake plus tsunami disaster in Samoa...

typhoon ketsana is overtaking cambodia, phillipines and vietnam.

many were killed... by mother nature's rage... because we are slowly destroying our world...

AREN'T YOU FREAKED BY MOTHER NATURE'S RAGE?

let us pray for a better tomorrow...

Just a thought...

2009-09-14T02:05:00.001+08:00

only God knows that what we eat, drink, breathe now might take a toll on us... a lot sooner than we think...

Thanks for the memories

2009-09-12T19:01:00.005+08:00

a friend of mine passed this morning. she was just 31. she had been coughing for the last 3months. when she started coughing out blood, she finally went to the hospital. what suspected to be a case of TB became the case of lung cancer. by the time, they found out, it was already at stage 4 and was spreading to her spine, causing her to paralyze from waist down.

and she was 7 months pregnant at the time.

i'm still stunned by the fact that she is no longer with us. she was the one who gave warm welcome to me when i started my practical training... she never fail to invite me for lunch, or an outting to OU during the long friday lunch breaks... we gossiped about the people in the office... i visited her home, met her 2 very young kids and husband.

she was one who takes care of her health. she reads the ingredients before she consumes them (makes sure that theyre healthy). she never smokes! never fond of it anyway. when i found out she was battling cancer... i just couldnt believe it. for someone as young and fit as she was... and it felt just like yesterday, we both had lunch, laughing and talking about our last trip to Bali. and now i'm speaking of her in past tense...

when she was diagnosed of stage 4 cancer, the doctors advised that the baby must be taken out. she even texted everyone that her chances of survival was very slim. and she apologized for any of her wrong-doings and she also forgave us. i visited her last monday and that was hours before the c-section is carried out. although she looked frail but somehow she looked so strong... apparently nodding and waving at me like we're having normal conversation.

on tuesday, i was relieved with the news that both baby and mother are in stable condition. although she was still unconscious, i was hoping that she would revive somehow.

but only her baby survived... but she did not. and i'm sorry i couldn't attend the tahlil.

Al-Fatihah...

and k.rida, thanks for the memories...

let us hope that there will be a better tomorrow.

bagai kacang lupakan kulit.. a story of how some Malays forgot their skin is 'sawo matang' and not putih... (reposted)

2009-09-08T22:34:00.007+08:00

I find this blogpost very intriguing. My cousin posted from his from his friend's blog and i like this post so much so i decided to repost it... to share it with my circle of friends because these douchebags, these self-proclaimed "elites" really exists!

This is a msg from my cousin -
The following is a repost of a Facebook note written by my friend Ahmad Firdaus Yaakop, better known among friends as Robo. He is currently studying at the Royal College of Surgeons in Ireland.

I reposted this with permission from him because I sincerely feel that the message should reach a wider audience/readership than just his circle of friends. I hope we all (especially Malaysians) can learn a thing or two from his recollections; that for one thing no matter where you are in the socioeconomic ladder, it doesn't mean squat if you don't have manners. Manners can take you further than just plain money and things from your dear ol' mummydaddy.

P/S: I wish I was there to witness it all. And probably take a picture of Robo in his heroic moment of glorious righteousness.

P/P/S: I wish I had written this myself. Kudos to you, Robo.

So here's Robo's story >>>---->

Reposted: bagai kacang lupakan kulit.. a story of how some Malays forgot their skin is 'sawo matang' and not putih...

today i met the absolute representation of the idiots that we should get rid off from this country if we are ever to even DREAM of reaching vision 2020...

i have been observing the people in Malaysia for the past months i been home, and i must say i am not liking what i see. through a myriad of factors intermingling together, including the economic prosperity enjoyed by the middle class and upper class society, many of them comprising of sons and daughters of govt officers (and i am not always proud to say, I myself is a member of this group) we have created a new class of people, who have appointed themselves and regarded themselves as the "elite" Malay group.. (note the inverted comma)

and these are the youth who walks along the street with a certain kind of swagger and pompous arrogance with their proud shirt with the humongous 'horse and number/roman numeral' emblem on their chest.. yes u know which brand of shirt i'm talking about.. ooh not forgetting their fancy rust dyed hair and their huge shades, and cargo pants. and usually they'll be walking in pairs proudly holding hands, gee i sure hope they are married, bulan puasa pon tak reti nak hormat? hmm...

today i met a group of these people, and they were rudely harassing a makcik at a stall at pasar ramadhan.. yes, granted it was hot, and there were a lot of people around the stall, for sure laa the makcik cannot layan everyone immediately.. but these group of people, who always think they are better than other Malays, by the virtue they can afford more stuff (paid by dad of course) apparently dah x tahan sgt nk kene tunggu lama were throwing rude and unneessary comments to the makcik... stupid arrogant people..

"haih makcik, kalau tak reti nak layan orang cepat2, baik jgn bukak gerai" said one of the skinny idiot, while holding the hands of his girlfriend, and this unnecessary comment was greeted by laughter from a few more youth, 3 boys and 2 girls, apparently they were all in the same group..

the makcik, displaying some hurt on her face teruslah melayan si kumpulan Melayu 'elite' ini.. and apparently got the order of these idiots wrong..

"makcik, i said two laa, two! T-W-O.. dua! D-U-A... dua! adoi.. dh laa lambat, x reti bahasa inggeris pulak tu rupanya, cakap 'sorry' pon td tergagap2.. haih, kan elok if science and math ajar in english, makcik ketinggalan zaman!" and the group laughed again..

i could see the makcik was very ashamed and offended, and suddenly i was offended, coz that couldve been my aunt, my grandma, my mother! Think about it, what if that happened to somebody in YOUR family...

so naturally, me with my recently discovered hot head and temper, decided to defend the makcik..

(this is an attempt to recreate the conversation as best to my memory as i could, pls be reminded that i was temporarily insane and blinded by rage, hehe)

"hoi, yang korang ni ingat korg mcm bagus nk mampus ni apahal? bley tolong relax tak kalau nak kutuk2 org pon, pahala puasa tu entah campak ke mana" i said with a stern voice, and oh yes it turned a few heads.. the group was stunned for a bit, then the idiot-leader had to reply..

"oi brader, ni bukan hal lu so baik u jgn masuk campur, kalau tak..."

"kalau tak apa brader, ko nak tampar aku? tumbuk aku? and aku plak tak kan laa nak biar laa ko kutuk makcik yg x bersalah ni lebih2?" yup, i was reeeealllly geting to be pissed off..

"eh bro, jgn cabar aku" said the idiot-leader while his gf was pulling him back asking him to stop, and the rest of the group konon2 nk tunjuk kuat closing in on me..

"1st thing 1st, aku bukan 'bro' ko, and 2ndly, tolong simpan jaguh2 kampung ko ni, mintak maap kat makcik ni.. yg ko mcm bagus kutuk2 makcik ni x reti bahas inggeris tu pehal? ko ingt english ko tu bagus sgt?" i was really pissed by now..

"eh yg ko berani nk marah2 aku ni pehal? ko ingt bapak aku ni org biasa?" the idiot leader replied.. gosh, they all look like they were about 18/19 years old.. arrogant 18/19 year olds who still turn to daddy in moment of need..

at that moment i knew that this was the group i was talking about, the self-appointed 'elite' Malays, the family where the mom and dad made good money, but forgot to teach proper manners to their offspring, and their offspring thought they were better than other Malays, esp those they regard as coming from the kampung.. just because daddy could afford to send them to private college doesnt make them better than the others!

"owhhh bapak ko bukan org biasa? habis dia apa? org minyak? org bunian?" i personally liked this line best, and judging from the laughter of the crowd behind me, so did they.. haha how did i come up with that in the heat of the moment i wonder myself..

"just because ko ni anak org yg ada kuasa, n tahu sepatah dua english, please please la jgn ingt ko tu lagi bgs dari makcik ni, or the rest of us ok? sedar sikit diri tu, manners gone down the bloody drain! urghhh u make soo mad! people like you just makes me sick! dah aku nyer pahala puasa pon dh ke mana ntah sebab aku dok menengking org2 mcm ko ni.. sila jgn perasan ko ni omputih dgn dressing ko n rambut dye laa, jam mahal laa" by now, there was a sizeable crowd against us..

for some reason, the idiots wre quiet, i guess they were shocked, and ashamed coz they know they did wrong.. and i overheard this from someone behind me..
"kalau kulit putih mcm abg baju hijau ni ok laa gak, ni kulit sama jek sawo matang mcm kitorg, tp perangai lebih2 dari omputih la plak" and yes, i was the one who he referred to as 'abg baju hijau'.. lol~

with his face red, and heavy breathing with a pissed off face, he walked off slowly as he was pulled by his gf and his group.. while a group was chanting "belah, belah, belah" to the group.. and as they left, the group clapped.. and the makcik thanked me for standing up to her, and i got some free kuih from her as a sign of her gratitude.. hehe.. thanx makcik!

but i did it not for the kuih, or for the attention, the praises.. i did it coz i cant stand this group of people, who think they are better than the rest of us! come back down to earth please~ and when i wrote this, i AM NOT targeting all polo shirt wearing hair dyeing tindik sana sini people, and also those who comes from a well-to-do family, i know that 99% of u are polite people who knows the boundaries of joking about, and are humble people with kind hearts.. but this 1%, you ppl are the bane of society, and bring shame upon other Malays.. i'm sorry if i offended anybody, but this entry is written with the purpose of reminding us all to be humble, and not to insult others.. your medical degree, tertiary education, overseas scholarship, all these do not make you better than other people, and all these mean NOTHING if you don't have manners, or basic respect for others..

do unto others how u wud expect to be done on urself, and respect begets respect..

p/s: sorry again for the negative tone of the entry.. :)
peace out~

...

KUDOS TO U TOO, ROBO!! LET'S ALL HOPE THAT THESE SELF-PROCLAIMED 'ELITES' WILL SEDAR DIRI SKET SO WE CAN ALL HAVE A BETTER TOMORROW

Professionals

2009-09-06T23:16:00.003+08:00

Professionals - a person engaged in one of the learned professions

When u talk about being professional, it means that a person becomes master of it. They have skills and knowledge in their respective fields compared to layman. There are loads of professional fields out there but i can give you the obvious answers such as accountants, lawyers, doctors, engineers and my own field - the architects.

By definition - A professional architect is someone who possesses the specialized knowledge and skills of a professional architect, which are acquired after a course of intensive study and a period of practical training.

however, when we design... it is often that a client disagree with what we do and come up with their own ideas - i am not going to write them down because it may turn out to be rather insulting than just a constructive criticism and plus, it would take me most probably another 2 hours to explain just that. but we design with reasons... rationals... not just because we like it. it is our job... it is our profession's responsibility to bring forth Malaysian architecture... not some photocopy of the Sultan Abdul Samad Building. we were trained through at least five years of school, to attain that acquired knowledge and skills. Our job is to advise clients but still clients ended up advising us what to do.

and the reason is... because they pay the fees.

but i wonder... for instance, like my fellow professional... let's say a doctor... whom the client pays and also gives advise on our health is not questioned about his job or his responsibility? Like if he gives you a paracetamol for a headache, does a client suggest to him otherwise?

Cesar Pelli did KLCC without anyone breathing on his neck. so i came to conclude that it is not easy to be a Malaysian architect... HA HA...

but i just can hope for a better tomorrow :)

Moolah

2009-08-30T09:44:00.004+08:00

people who refers to the term - "Money isn't everything"- often thinks about money a lot... don't you think?

Well, in Malaysia... they want good qualities but cheap labour - consequences are the employees are basically overworked, considering we are paid low. i went to a young professionals seminar and they highlighted this... why do u think contractors hire indonesians or other immigrants from third world countries? because they come cheap... but can provide the same quality.

however, in Australia... to be in the construction industry - u need to have qualifications! yes... i'm saying people who lay bricks for their jobs need to have at least some sort of a certified diploma in bricklaying :P

just a thought... on this beautiful rainy sunday morning :) but let's all hope for a better tomorrow :D

The Shawshank Redemption

2009-08-29T12:20:00.005+08:00

I'm a movie buff. but there is one point in my movie-buff life that i ran out of ideas on what to watch (either i don't think the movie is intriguing enough or i've seen most of the movies). so i googled under 'the best movie ever' (cheesy, i know) because i want quick results. ImDB provided me with a list of top 250 movies as voted by their users.

and The Shawshank Redemption was at the top of the list.

although being the first or the second or the 250th, the number of votes does not dictate the rankings. i myself don't know why. but i scanned through the list and still find The Shawshank Redemption at the top of the list by having the most number of votes.

so i decided to get this movie to see what was so great about it.

i don't want to give any spoilers in case anyone wants to see it. i have added my vote that this is the best movie ever. i even think that this movie was inspired from Count of Monte Cristo and also prehaps, this movie inspired Prison Break :P or at least have some sort of a connection.

what i find in this movie rather fulfilling because of the morals it teaches - HOPE. How important it is to have dreams and ambitions... because it will help you imagine and fill yourself with desire and courage to achieve your dreams and ambitions. This is what Tim Robbins' character conveyed... however, Morgan Freeman's character did not believe in hope as he had in it in his mind that hope only drives people crazy.

i can relate to this movie because i've wanted to be an architect since i was 12. through high school, i studied art even though it was not required in the course i was in (sub-science). i even endured a year of pre-university course, which has nothing to do with architecture (only that it was an express ticket to architectural degree). In acquiring my first architectural degree, i hit a huge road bump. i failed to graduate on time. and came to a point where i believed hope is what made me felt pressured and drove me up the walls. but that didn't stop me from pursuing my second architectural degree. i was both Andy Dufresne and Ellis Boyd Redding in my architecture student lifetime :|

so hope... dreams... and ambitions is all it takes :) money will come later ;)

okay, now i ran out of ideas what to watch again... :((( well, let's hope for a better tomorrow :D

Month of Ramadhan

2009-08-27T22:33:00.004+08:00

first and foremost, pardon my 'french' in the previous blog. i was just so angry with hot rod for being so rude to my mother and that now being the month of Ramadhan, it is all about Iman... our strength of conviction. i was put to test that day and i didn't handle it well. my apologies.

yesterday, i had a discussion with a friend who is a catholic. although he claims he doesn't practice often but then there are muslims that are muslims but don't really practice Islam. the root of catholicism or any other religions are basically the same. they teach the very same values. i came to understand traditional catholics do fast during the lent, they were required to cover up and premarital sex was definitely a ticket to hell. i came to conclude that i find it very interesting to know that there are similarities between my religion and his.

what changed this tradition? i don't know. perhaps... globalization and modern thinking. people tend to believe in logic rather than conviction. or maybe the religious leaders back then changed it to suit the ever-changing needs of people or to suit his own personal need... or even simpler, maybe culture is mistaken as religion.

like i mentioned, all religions teach basically the same values. thus, i strongly believe that there is one God, Who creates us all.

Happy fasting and breaking fast to all Muslims

-wasalam-

23 year-old Hot Rod vs 56 year-lady Lady and her son...

2009-08-24T21:30:00.005+08:00

i wasn't actually there but when this happens to my family... i am as much angered as if i was there. the anger wasn't provoked by the accident or whose fault it was but it was simply triggered by horrible manners and utter disrespect by a 23 year old hot rod against my 56 year old mother and my 27 year old brother.

i am attaching this scenes just to prove that the guy was ridiculous! and how bloody rude he was to my mother. not only that it was his fault and he refused to accept it... but he was such an annoying smart mouth that thinks he's smarter than everybody. well, it was his puny brain and huge ego that got us into this mess in the first place.

SCENE 1

my brother was driving, coming back from a friday prayer when he gave a signal to notify other vehicles that he is approaching left because he is about to enter our house.

SCENE 2

the whole lane can accomodate two whole cars, which the hot rod's motorcycle could easily cruise by on the right... but this particular hot rod behind my brother's car chose to squeeze in the left. so he attempted an Evel Knievel stunt by speeding up hoping he would get through...

SCENE 3

unfortunately... with the puny brain of his... BAM!!... he and his passenger ended up flying after the crash.

my neighbour heard the crash and ran out to help. but the hot rod was already starting to provoke my brother saying it was his fault. HELLO... u cannot be at the car's blind spot because the crash clearly showed that u were speeding and u must have had an ample distance to be able to make that damage to our car (our side mirror is shattered and broken, hanging lop-sided and the side of the door is dented) and not to mention your stupid bike and yourself n ur poor passenger. my neighbour happened to be a very stern old man and when he started to shout asking the both of them make a police report, the hot rod finally kept quiet.

so both of them went to make a police report, where the police also insisted that my brother was the one @ fault. the police officer said, u should approach more to the left so that there will be no space for the bike to go through. some people can be a real thick-heads... i mean how close can u get to the roadside so that the motorcycles will know that they can't go through? how close is close? anyway... whatever... because them police use motorcycles so they're on the hot rod's side for today. they decided to let own insurance pay the damage.

the hot rod was injured so he demanded (not in a nice way) that my brother took him to the hospital. by this time, my mother just came back. my bro told the hot rod that he had to call his parents and do that himself. however, the hot rod still holds my bro responsible. so my mother said, let's take him to the clinic. but she went in to park her car... and her knee wasn't that good, she walked slowly back out towards the gate... and what does the hot rod say,

"Bro... if possible, take me to hospital today or tomorrow... but i would prefer today la, bro"

so bloody rude... who do u think u are?! can't u see that we are doing u a favor?? and my mum has a busted knee! give her a break, a**hole!!

after the clinic, we sent him back to his motorcycle... before he departs, he told my brother and my mother (pointing with his finger) "you two... will answer to God!"

whatever, freak! You'll have to answer to God too, dumb a**!!!

Al-Fareeda is up and running!!!

2009-07-20T19:37:00.001+08:00

visit this for a collection of swimwear for muslimah!

PK lahhhh

2009-07-19T10:45:00.003+08:00

my father has been the general manager of a small developer company for 20 or more years. it was about time he retires and let his jr staffs take over. this developer company is a part of the PKNS developers. so whatever the company decides, it has to answer back to PKNS.

but now, since Selangor is under a new government, there are a lot of political disputes. even down to the part of who shall be the next GM of my father's company...

my father suggested one of his staffs. he knew him for 20 years, the way he works and obviously that particular candidate knows he's way around that company. my father knows there's a no better candidate than this guy.

but now, since Selangor is under a new government, outsiders are trying to lobby for the post. when i say lobby, they are doing everything in their will to get it - even if it takes to do a little evil.

but they should understand that my father knows who is best to replace him. the board should consider his proposal. the company has brought so much profit - they should be able to trust my father's judgments.

and on last wednesday, i was fortunate to be able to present a project to my father's company in his last few days at the company. for more than 20 years of my father working there, i have never seen my father playing a role other than a father, brother, son... this is the first time i see him in a much more superior state. and of all the scare of how shitty clients can be when i was studying was definitely not displayed with this company. even my boss became long term friends with the company exco. they gave constructive comments that i find very helpful and also lifted my spirits to design better.

it was a significant day for me - my first meeting with client and my father's last day as a client.

Authority-hopping!

2009-07-02T21:02:00.002+08:00

hey this is my second post in a day. i was fasting today so i had to refrain myself from cursing and channeling out my anger until i break fast. now... the time has come...

I was on a mission on getting planning guidelines in Klang. This is my company's first project in Klang so we had very little idea what to do except finding the planning guidelines (different areas usually have different guidelines). so I embark on a journey of massive traffic jams, scorching heat and ended up getting lost. I missed a junction towards the town council and had to make a huge detour just to turn back. i would not have missed it if the signage is consistent. up to one extend, the direction to the town council was gone!

At the HQ, i was told planning department had moved! so i had to drive to the planning department to get the planning guidelines. when i requested it, they gave me their copy of the book and i asked if they sell it. it's the planning department! shouldn't they have planning guidelines with them?

but no... apparently Malaysians like to twist things a little. i was directed to the Town and Country Planning Department (don't know if i translated it correctly - Jabatan Perancangan Bandar dan Desa) in Shah Alam! Okay fine... i can go on the way back to KL. Then, since i am at the planning department, i thought i'd ask for submission forms for development order. it's the planning department! shouldn't they have the forms with them?

but no... it was at the OSC, which is at the HQ! well, yeah... usually forms are at the OSC but if you have one department five-minute drive away from the HQ, u ought to keep a set of forms in your department to avoid hassle.

okay, got my forms! off to Shah Alam... i'm not equipped with GPS so i decided to gamble and i got lost. i called my office mates, they were all weren't around. i didn't want to bother my boss so i called a friend, who is a resident there, for directions. After 1 hour of roaming around, i finally found it.

i rushed straight to the 15th floor. requested from this lady the planning guideline, she said that is on the 16th floor. fine... ran up to floor 16, requested for the book again from the lady at the counter. and she said it's on the 18th floor! hmmm... ok, i ran up to 18th floor and asked the guy at the counter, "Do u have the planning guideline?"

"Oh, you can go www.jpbdselangor.gov.my to get it"

At the time, it seemed like i was going, "......." but inside i was screaming, "ARGHHHH!!! #^%$#%%@#!!!!"

so... lesson of the day... when you had a core subject course named "Professional Study" for B.Sc. in Architecture, please pay a little bit of attention and never skip class :P

second lesson, don't put on high heels to go to authority. they make you run around... it's best to put on some cute olivias :D

Maid in Malaysia

2009-07-02T20:08:00.003+08:00

The rationale behind the blog title will be revealed after you read this post.

My mom has a maid. The reason why my mom hires a maid because my mom needs help in running the household. There used to be seven people to look after (not including herself), with a huge house of 6 bedrooms, a living, a dining, a family, a dry/wet kitchen, a porch, a terrace and fifty sq meter of lawn, my mom just couldn't manage the house on her own. Hence, she hired a maid to help her.

The first foreign maid was when i was about seven or eight years old. she had come to our house as her previous employer allegedly abused her. we helped her and take her into our home and treat her as if one of our own. but as years passed, you slowly see the true colours. i remembered how bad-tempered she was, although she never did anything physical to us but i remembered the words and the tones she used with us when she's angry (of course behind our parents)... all hell broke loose, i tell u... but we were too young and too stupid to understand and not complain to our parents. but slowly, my mom saw it for herself. she was let go...

and we hired her niece next. she was only fifteen when she was hired. and she was at the age of raging hormones! i have to acknowledge that she stayed with us the longest and the best and most cooperative one we ever had. my mom even considered her as her own daughter. but when she got older, she decided to get married and start a family of her own. so we had to let her go...

the next maid we hired is through an agent. her documents said that she was 36 and married. so my mom thought, ok... married... no raging hormonal teenagers... and 36 so she probably know how to run a household :) so when she arrived, she hunched as she got out of the car... like an old lady! apparently, she wasn't 36 as mentioned in the papers... she was easily 50 something. hence, there are somethings that she couldn't do and also, due to she being older than my mom... she kind of has her own mind that really annoys my mom. after 4 years, she was let go...

our current maid is young, fresh and fast. although she doesn't really know how to cook but her skills in cleaning compensates her weakness. my mom bonded well with her as the rest of us. we welcomed her with open arms... until when she opens her mouth... i am not only trying to badmouth these people who has helped my mom but hers by far is the most intolerable.

not only does she talks loud, she gloats about how her mother's employer was so nice to her mother as if we are not being nice enough. as if we have not treat her well enough. she boasts about her life and i'm not saying i hate it just because she's a maid. the fact that anyone boasts just irritates me. she likes the fact that we beg her to come follow us on our picnics, our family dinner or just stay with us a little longer. but our family does not work that way. and when we don't plead or show some sort of desperateness of wanting her presence, she'd go off to her room and stay there, only coming out when we were upstairs.

just today, she tested me and my mom by saying, 'in a few months, i'll be gone'(in indonesian of course). but she already said that like a million times over, as if waiting for us to say, 'ohhh... please stay... don't go...'. but instead, we all rolled our eyes and silenced. my mom even asked, 'have you decided?'... apparently, she is still 'bingung' (confused and undecided).

we never scolded any of our maids or even raise our voice because we respect them as we respect any other human beings. she, as well as the next maid knows how bad other employers can treat their maids. it is all evident in the papers...

employers are the villains?? but maids aren't that angelic too...

Breathe

2009-06-28T11:43:00.002+08:00

Breathe (2am) by Anna Nalick

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

taken from the album, Wreck of the Day and Grey's Anatomy OST.

If you feel like you've made a mistake, or feel like you're failing...

... just breathe ...

Jane Austen and Her Legacy

2009-06-25T23:39:00.008+08:00

The first jane austen book i ever bought was Emma... I've only gone through a few pages and that was it. I couldn't understand a single sentence without reading it several times all over. When i saw in the Astro program that they were showing Emma. I wasn't sure if it was the book adaptation. Apparently it is - eversince 1996, starring Gwyneth Paltrow. So i decided to rely on the movie instead :P

Emma wasn't the first movie I saw of Jane Austen's work. I've heard of her books every once in a while. Her famous 'Pride and Prejudice'. When the book was to be made into a movie, i quickly jumped at the chance to watch.

and i officially became a huge fan of jane austen afterwards.

After Emma, i came to see Sense & Sensibility and to which all three i fell in love with. Not just the storyline but the whole setting of late 18th century - the literature, culture and fashion and customs! They were so... proper :P

I saw Becoming Jane - an autobiography movie of the late Ms. Austen. And i immediately understood where she got her inspirations from. I thinks she places herself in her books that had happy endings that she could not have.

Later, i decided to dig in further if there are more adaptations of her book since my lack of English literature comprehension prevented me from reading her excellent books. I found out there was another movie just recently made... even more recent than Pride and Prejudice that starred Kiera Knightley.

"Persuasion"

It wasn't widely publicized as it was only aired in British television network. However, i find this movie/ book is my favourite before Pride and Prejudice and Emma.

There was this one part in the movie which i liked best - which is the letter that Captain Wentworth wrote to Anne Elliot.

Dear Ms. Elliot,
I can bear this no longer. You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own, than when you almost broke it eight years ago. I have loved none but you. You alone have brought me to Bath. For you alone I think and plan. - Have you not seen this? I can hardly write. I must go, uncertain of my fate. A word, a look will be enough to decide. Tell me not that I am too late that such precious feelings are gone forever.

But in the book has perhaps a longer version of the letter. Back then, rather than finding love, the culture is to marry well. Perhaps that was what jane austen wanted... both love and marry well.

and which she has all successfully conveyed through her books - her legacy.

Utopia

2009-05-26T13:28:00.005+08:00

I recently retreated to island of Redang in Terengganu. The ride to Terengganu was terrible. Just the day before, there was a headline about a bus express accident, 2 dead and 7 severely injured. What worries me even more, it was the same consortium that we hired and also it happened en-route to Terengganu, which is where we are heading. Plus it was a red-eye ride...

But if death is coming then it's coming. It's not like Final Destination, where you can foresee these things. I believe in fate - if it is my time... then it's my time, regardless of where it is.

Despite sitting at the front top deck and the fright of the double-decker bus overtaking other vehicles, the bus was shaking a lot so i couldn't sleep anyway. When we arrived, we were bugged by a persistent driver, we missed the 7am bus to the jetty, sat in a beat-up car with no a/c, seatbelts and it was raining.

In conclusion, it was one hell of a ride for us... Maybe for me, the least :P

The moment we arrived on the island, it was breathtaking... there was a gradient of blue. As the ocean goes deeper, the darker the blue is. At the beach, the water is so clear, you can see fish swimming underneath it. yadda yadda yadda... all those things that perhaps Tioman or even the Caribbean has better...

What amazes me is the culture and the life of the people who lives there. A beach boy probably earns little but his job is so rewarding. It is most rewarding when you get to experience the nature God created everyday and which no man can duplicate.
We talk of whose car is faster and whose house is fancier but these islanders are different. Instead of comparing which resort has the highest rating, they'd compare how much of relaxation and nature they could provide. You can stay at 5 star hotel and yet still visit the same places as the people who are staying in at unrated hotels. if the islanders would have gone through what i have experienced in getting there, they probably would not have complained... :P

view from mutiara beach resort, where i stayed (food is great, beach is private, cleanliness is superb, chalet is good)

And it also lead me to thinking, how much i wish if there is a world without money and luxury. A world, where we all can sit in our rags, catch fish to eat, wash up in the sea or river, sleep under a hut with no walls or windows, no air conditioning. no vehicles needed, no fuel needed... we will just depend on what nature gives. and with all that, i imagined there would definitely be no stress, no debts, no crimes... and i was blessed to have experience a true utopia in Redang even for just 3 days and 2 nights...

May Mayhem!

2009-05-15T19:43:00.003+08:00

most of my family members are born in may. I was born on the 2nd, my late granpa was on th 7th, my older sis on 12th and my aunt on 16th. usually, we would just pick any date in may and celebrate all those who was born in the month of may.

and now, there is a new addition to the family and the may mayhem - a baby boy was born on may 14th.

he is named amer zafran bin furhan.

amer felt like a stranger that fell onto our laps :P maybe because he was the third grandchild. we were all used to the commotion of the labour day. but it wasn't only just that. amer sat in his mother's womb... when i say 'sat', i mean he literally is sitting! and addition to that, he constantly lean on one side of his mother's womb causing my poor sister's skin to stretch the furthest it could. amer never kicked while he was in the womb (perhaps due to his fetal position) so there was never any sort of interaction going on from inside the womb to the outside.

amer was like a mystery to us... so when he came... it was like, 'ahhh, there you are...'

Back from the Brink!

2009-04-10T01:24:00.008+08:00

back from the dead... back from hiatus... upon writing this, my final design thesis ended just 8 hours ago.

before that point, i hadn't thought that this would be my last verbal presentation at school or the last time i'd spent rm500++ for my boards... i was more concerned about convincing the lecturers and external critics about my scheme.

last semester i was probably one of the 'under average' students and had a bad presentation that led me thinking that i wasn't going to make it into second semester. but i did... with the minimum grade to pass :P

in second semester i still hit huge bumps along the road... it was not a straight road for me like it seemed with others. i had breakdowns... rather discreetly... until one point during one of the studio pin-ups, i (or my classmates/lecturers and i ) had the most memorable and embarrassing experience, which was breaking down in front of all 4 lecturers and at least 15 students. i did not let out small sobs... i actually hyper ventilated!! so embarrassing...

mind you, that was the first time i ever cried during presentation in my SIX years of studying architecture ok??? that's like 6 times at least 100 presentations a year! u do the math!

although embarrassing, i'm glad that it happened. it was like back from the brink. i learned a lot from that crit and it was a turning point. not just in terms of design... but in terms of confidence, self-esteem and passion. i think from that point onwards, i knew how to make my design thesis more interesting, convincing and believable. it was an agonizing 5 weeks for me... when people did their thesis in 35 weeks, i was doing in 5 weeks. it was up to a point where i isolated myself from my close friends. i specifically said, i'm quarantining myself or i'm in a confinement period so that they won't be asking me for usual hang outs a lot. i think that helped in focusing in my work better :) i worked hard to get here... but not without the help of my teachers :,)

size: 5.046m x 1.782m

the scheme could be better. i think my perspectives helped to sell my ideas. i hate the location of my presentation. the place was actually a walkway to get to other panels so when it was my turn, i sort of caused a jam that led to accumulate audience. which was good by the way. the down side is that - there wasn't enough distance for the lecturers to see my boards as a whole and also my models on the sides. they didn't even admire my model :((( which took me a week to do...

at one point of the presentation, one of my teachers was trying to get through but couldn't without interrupting the presentation and what he did was, while walking low, he said, "don't you just love it?" hahaha... and one of the architects thought i hired him to say that :P

no matter the outcome... or grade... i think i've learned a lot and improved a lot for the past year. besides growing a couple of zits, i gained new friends alongside bonding better with the friends i already have.

that's what matters most.

errr, no... not really... :P i want to graduate too... :P
3 friggin days

3 friggin different days than above

presentation board: rm 540
model: rm70+ and counting
back from the brink: priceless...

on hiatus~

2009-02-05T08:30:00.003+08:00

the title says it all... until april anyways :)

as if i have avid readers...

til april... good morning, good evening n good night!

Outraged

2009-01-09T08:16:00.003+08:00

it has been a while... i know. i'd say i don't have the time but that would be bullshit . i'd say my internet n phone line was down but that only happens most of the time.

so i'd say some of the time when my internet was up, i didn't have the time... nor the inspiration to write.

i'd say i'm glad to be here because i live in a peaceful country despite the recession, political disputes that kept on rising until it bore us out of our wits! but i'd also say that i'm not...

as we all laughed and celebrated the passing of 2008 on the New Year's eve, our brothers in Islam were screaming... mourning... over, not the passing of 2008, but over the passing of their loved ones. this... so-called... war over terrorists is just a cliche that has been used over and over again by the countries with greater power. i may not see eye to eye with certain people but if innocent civilians and children are categorized as terrorists and deserved to be murdered without mercy during the course of this war, i'd be more than happy to shut up.

but anyway, define terrorist? a man's hero may be another man's terrorist.

so from what most of the world is seeing is that there is some sort of a hidden propaganda.

i don't want to just say that i'm outraged and i want to do something about it than just sign petitions and send my prayers... to our brothers in Islam...

-amin-

Preach on a Monday

2008-11-10T04:46:00.005+08:00

it's amazing how a mind works. i was watching a movie - sweet november - since it is november and i heart keanu reeves and charlize theron combo so much. so it was just a romantic... sweet... kinda boring harmless movie... and turned out, i was slowly having an epiphany.

what caused this?

globalization.

really... i've always known and worried what globalization could do to our culture and values. globalization spreads knowledge and provides exposure but yet, it could also destroy a knowledge and people are easily influenced when they are weak.

it is the modern era.

the needs of people also evolve. culture evolves. i don't deny it. but it must not be destroyed. The eastern culture has absorbed western culture so much that i don't need a whole continent as a case study. just studying people around me is enough to convince how much our culture is deteriorating. and so does the values that our religion has taught us.

yes, you see people dress like westerners everyday, u can hardly tell them apart now with people dying their hair blonds and contact lenses turning our eyes colourful. we are more fluent using their language than our own. but that shouldn't alter who we are inside.

we are malays. by definition, a malay has to be a muslim. but u see Malays everywhere but practicing Muslims very rare. aside from the issue of globalization, the global warming is perhaps a factor that Muslims are wearing lesser cloth. let me repeat - the needs of people change - and touching the opposite sex when they are not your brother or sister is highly normal now, how would our next generation behave then?

is this the kind of values we want to teach our children? do we want to create a generation who never speaks of their mother tongue or practice what is required by Islam?

what is you answer?

life is short. the afterlife is everlasting... and it awaits us.

you decide.

.

Do it for Yourself

2008-11-09T12:04:00.003+08:00

there's a huge boundary between being good at something and loving doing it.

when you find yourself being good at something and not loving it - it feels like everything is forced, even though u keep being good at it. it feels like a job... an obligation but not fulfilling.

a few years back, i saw the sitcom - Two guys, a girl and a pizza place - this guy is a good architect but he hates doing it... he loves to be a commentator but lousy at it.
so i thought, not that i'm good at psychoanalyzing wutsoever but i thought he can still do the job he hates forever... but never make the thing that you love to do as your job even though you're not lousy at it.
because loving what you do is about doing it for yourself and when it is a job, you would be doing it for someone else or for some other thing that isn't permanent. and it forces you to fulfill other people's expectations and not yours.

no matter how sucky you are at what you do or how good you are at something u felt sucky doing, do it for yourself... it would turn out to be rather fulfilling than you can imagine.

Take a Chance

2008-11-06T01:57:00.004+08:00

i know exactly which people are going to make fun of me after they read this blog. but it's about time i stop feeling bothered by what other people think of me and take a chance...

i should be paying attention to my dissertation or thesis but this frustration is so overwhelming that i need to get it out of my system or else i can't function well.
maybe it's the shouting more than singing in the redbox... maybe it's the coffee we had after that... maybe it's the air... maybe it's someone i met today...

after redbox... i knew i would be drawing attention. i'm not saying as if i'm flattering myself but i was carrying a bottle of sparking grape juice, which very much looked like a bottle of champagne. and for someone like me to be carrying something like that around, it was a pretty odd combination and very provocative sight.

even one indian aunty from McDonald's was very skeptical with the sight of me carrying the champagne look-alike. she kept eyeing me and immediately, to my defense, i said, "This is sparkling juice... not alcohol..."
somehow the indian aunty just couldn't get it into her head. she kept asking me if it was appropriate for someone like me to be drinking... won't i get drunk?? i was done convincing... i ignored her.

we sat outside McD, alfresco style. Just so happen a group of three guys next to us was skeptical as well. one of them asked and i responded to my defense. apparently, one of us (other than myself) thought he was nice to look at. i wouldn't want to go into the details as i'd like the memory all to myself ;) all began with that bottle of champagne look-alike.

it was so unfortunate that i have SHY as my initials. it somehow defines me as well. he asked for my name and number. it was so unfortunate that i care so much about integrity, my friends' feelings and their perceptions towards me... i actually ignored. so all the way back home, i kept thinking what should have happened if i, for once, ignore my fear and took a chance...

maybe not to the extend of handing out my number. i guess he has to work a little harder than that :)

ECO film fest!

2008-10-25T16:22:00.003+08:00

Eco film fest will be held at the Akademi Seni Kebangsaan on the 1st NOV and 2nd NOV 2008. And UM will be participating. There'll be an exhibition and my project, which won the MNS-Optima EcoCenter design competition are to be exhibited.

apart from that, there are films that'll show such as Who Killed the Electric car?, Kilowatt Ours, A Crude Awakening... and other films that perhaps might give us a slap in the face about our ignorance towards the environment. Ignorance is no defense!

there are also performance by Kokokaina, One Buck short and the fest will be covered by XFresh and Hitz.fm. So this fest is not to be missed!

for more info, log on to www.ecoknights.com

The Eve of Post-presentation day

2008-10-24T01:27:00.002+08:00

barely had a single good night sleep since last week. whenever i find a time to take a nap, it would usually take half an hour to get me drifted off... and half an hour is precious and a luxury.

still procrastinating at the 11th hour... and the result of the presentation was not as i suspected. i suspected a failing grade actually given the bad critic i received throughout the whole 30mins of presentation. the only good critic i got was good verbal presentation... others? zilch... the critics say i lack passion and joy in doing my work. not to say i was deeply hurt. they barely know me... how i work... in what way i show or express my passion and joy... and also at what scale is my passion and joy... perhaps my maximum level of passion and joy in work is others' at minimum. and comparing is another aspect since i may be not as smart as the next guy and perhaps i take a little more time synthesizing and analyzing my research. there was no use in telling them as defense because they were pretty judgmental on it. and i have high respects for the elders. however, their comments really do motivate me.

on the eve of the post-presentation day, i should be able to sleep better now. but i'm wide awake. i just came back from watching a theater performance and a late night dinner with friends. we were all saying how tired we are... how we're going to be sleeping and missing prayers... but yet, when i arrive, i can't seem to fall asleep.

have i turned insomniac???

Happy Eid Mubarak Everyone!

2008-10-06T21:50:00.003+08:00

Selamat hari raya eid-ul-fitr to everyone...

unfortunately the festive month is to be cut short as we 5th yr architecture students have submission within 2 weeks time. do wish us luck!

and there won't be any new posts till then...

well... till then... good morning, good evening and good night!

NEW Layout... for Sept 2008 - to date

2008-09-22T23:24:00.004+08:00

idea came from a sudden conscious of the environment. or perhaps a feeling of remorse for the environment.

the devastating storm in Klang and Kedah that led families celebrating Ramadhan roofless was a sign. a warning. the unpredictable drastic change of weather is only one of the earlier signs. it could get worse... only God knows what the future will be for our children.

i'm one of the people who slowly degrading the environment. trust me, if a hybrid car is available widely in Malaysia, i would be one of the first in line to purchase.

but we can start with the little things like recycling, which my mom and i are actively doing. it also put some extra $$$ in our pockets :) perhaps it'll help us to buy a hybrid one day :))))

so i present you the concept of the new layout >>>-----> let's save the environment!

God is with Us

2008-09-22T17:12:00.003+08:00

At the rate i'm going with my design thesis, my blood pressure level should be up to the ceiling now. and i also could predict the end results, which is not a pretty vision. and i would have burst into tears by now.

but i've been through that phase (the slow designer phase) and i refuse to go through the tension and intense pressure situation. when you have that mind set, no matter how deeply in trouble you are, you'll feel calm and collected. although you know the future is not going to be bright a few days ahead but believe that you can do it... believe that you can rise up to the challenge. and fulfill everyone's expectations.

and even if you can't manage to do so... always believe that God is with you.

whatever happens is all in God's hands... what is important is we try our best.

Selumbar

2008-09-17T01:24:00.008+08:00

Kalau dah ada filem sembilu... aku nak buat filem bertajuk selumbar plak...

begini plotnya...

Shazuin is still doing her fugly, friggin' conceptual model. She has been stabbing herself with tiny splinters, damaging her nails with super glue and straining her fingers since friday evening. So as she was 60% through her model, she thought she found an easier alternative (the so-called splinter-risk free option) to make the model out of the ridiculous satay sticks... well, she was wrong. it's so happen that the structure just won't work with the splinter-risk free way unless she uses some sort of a knot system that ties the beams and columns together instead of using glue. well tying is another issue... and a hassle. since the beams and columns are made out of satay sticks. so back to plan A.

Now the model is 95% done. When the splinters are starting make her face itch and her fingers ache, she decides to stop and write this stupid blog called "Selumbar".

Nantikan di panggung wayang berdekatan anda!

and i think it's time for a new layout! i'm going green this time. green is the new pink... that's what they all say. i thought green should always have been the new pink :/

Picture Perfect

2008-09-15T15:48:00.001+08:00

Last night i get to catch a movie i've been wanting to watch since i was 13...

now eleven years later, i get to watch it. although i hate to miss the few earlier and VERY important parts, i kept on watching in hope i can catch the earlier bits when it shows again.

i thought jay mohr was cute (when he was younger WAY back then) only at certain angles... haha. and i love the fight scene. the so-called big break-up between nick and kate.

i'm doing a structural model on Bus stand klang using satay sticks and i have tiny splinters everywhere! in my fingers, my toes and i can even feel some in my face!!! i was 60% through the model-making when i realized there was a more easier... faster... less-splinter risk way...

It's All Wrong But It's All Right

2008-08-27T03:02:00.003+08:00

Hello are you free tonight I like your looks I love your smile
Could I use you for a while it's all wrong but it's all right
The amber sunset glow has died my needs're very much alive
Is it okay if I stop by it's all wrong but it's all right
It's all wrong but it's all right just close your eyes and hold me tight
Tell me sexy lovin' lines it's all wrong but it's all right

It may be wrong if we make love but I just need someone so much
And who knows it might last for life it's all wrong but it's all right
It's all wrong but it's all right...
It's all wrong but it's all right just close your eyes and fantasize
Tell me sexy lovin' lines it's all wrong but it's all right
It's all wrong but it's all right...

Originally sung by Dolly Parton. I was never a fan but when Michael Johns of the AI7 sang it, i kinda fell in love with the song... and Michael's voice... sighhh* but i prefer the studio recording version.

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the reason of this post is that i'm doing me thesis. i felt like i'm doing all wrong... so... it's all wrong but it's all right...

Happy Birthday, Ila and Ayah!

2008-08-26T01:34:00.002+08:00

my sis turns 17 today and my dad turned 57 on august 22nd but both are not here as they are away for Umrah.

May they are blessed with long life and prosperity :)

i miss them... missing the noise we all make in the house. I can never get used to the quietness in my house in this past week.

Somehow i find the nuisance quite comforting :) (applies to the Yaacob's kins only ok?)

How can rock be so comforting?

2008-08-22T19:04:00.003+08:00

my parents, my aunt and younger sis, whom i talk to about everything are away for Umrah. i'm missing them terribly. just the presence of them would comfort me right now. soon my older sis and her family will be returning to their home and i'll be left to turn to perhaps, my older bro and younger sis who probably have problems of their own... my younger brother, whom sometimes doesn't have a clue about anything... perhaps, i'll just turn to my maid... ha ha...

i'm on the verge of somewhere, where i have no clue what to do... where i have my regrets but still, i refuse to fall... perhaps that is my regret... i don't knowwww!

i'm stuck here and i need my source of comfort...

my family is my source of comfort... my rock...

but how can rock be so comforting?

Sexy and the Cit

2008-08-20T01:59:00.003+08:00

the reason of the title is that i don't want my 6-year old nephew and 3-year old niece to be hearing the word 'sex' so i converted it to Sexy and the Cit. and it got stuck ever since.

anyway, it's not that i'm not a fan of 'Sexy and the Cit'. i was probably to immature to pick it up when it first showed. and even when i finally reach adolescence, my interests with the show did not grow with me. i'm the type 'once you miss an episode or when there's hassle to pick it up... forget it'.

so i watched the SATC movie on DVD because i don't like censored movies and knowing Malaysia... i think the movie would have been cut down 30mins than its original run time. 30 mins is like 30 days/episodes in a movie... and i don't like missing episodes. i'm not saying this like as if i'm indulging myself in those explicit sex scenes ok??! i'm a person who counts every detail.

i thought the movie was great. i thought it might have boring parts... but hell, i was wrong. i'm 20 something something and the idea of being 40 and beyond scares me... but after i saw this movie, i'm actually not afraid of getting old. well, maybe because i imagine myself growing old with the LVs, the Pradas, the Guccis, the bling bling... ha ha... or maybe i imagine myself growing old with 3 other great friends, whom regardless married or lived across the country, are there for you no matter what =)
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i'm on a week holiday and i dread doing my homework, which piles up everyday i decide 'oh well, i can always do it tomorrow'

the thing is... i work faster last minute... and i value my rest. very much.

my source of comfort is MIA for two weeks! how am i to survive next week???!

could not ask for more

2008-08-15T09:55:00.004+08:00

some people may need a million dollars to be happy

some may just need to see other people suffer so they can be happy

but me... i just need my family. period.

i have an older sister, who's although married with two kids and you can still go crazy with her. my older brother, who's most of the time ignorant and irresponsible, but when he's around... the world just got funnier i guess. i have two younger sisters... one that i can steal clothes anytime and vice versa and one that i can talk to about anything! i have a younger brother, who's lazy and stubborn, but he is very protective of his family.

your first impression of my father would probably be scary, strict ... but he is exactly everything i'd go looking for a future husband. i'd be stressed out with my work and i would find a text msg reading - all the best, you can do it. i know you can - my dad says...

my mother's warm presence is all you need when you're stressed out about anything. i can talk anything to her without her judging me.

i can't say i have the two best parents in the world because i can't compare. and i can't compare because i have no other parents parenting me.

but all i can say is i'm very grateful to have them as my parents. and i could not ask for more than what they've given me.

btw, i skipped dinner twice in a row because one, i was too stressed out to be eating... second, i missed dinner because i slept at 630pm and woke up at 930am. i thought i slept for just a few hours since before i got to sleep there was still daylight and i woke up... and there was daylight! a record eh??

okay, now i'm really hungry! later, people!

can't figure out a title for this!

2008-08-09T17:48:00.005+08:00

I just came back from a 2-day 'camping' adventure from serendah. i placed the inverted commas because well... would u call it camping if u sleep in a rm400/night chalet with a bed (not bunk ok... a bed!) made out of glass, a functional WC and hot shower, a complete kitchen utensils including the stove and a microwave?

The place called Sekeping Serendah is gorgeous retreat. It is smacked in the middle of a forest, located near a waterfall with such disappointing development. I went once to the waterfall during a picnic but never knew the retreat was there. I'm glad i got a chance to stay there... even for a night. even i had to share my queen-sized bed with two other people.

i got stung by a 'ulat bulu' that thursday. i don't know what's it called in english. is it poisonous caterpillar?? or furry caterpillar? haha... anyway, i thought when u get stung by those stuff, you're suppose to feel itchy. but not this one... this one was painful! like a bee sting painful. so i thought i had an allergic reaction to it or something. i was actually panicking but managed to contain myself. the pain lasted 3 hours. i hated the pain but once it was gone... i kinda missed it. haha... well, it was my first experience getting sting by a 'ulat bulu'!

So we left about 12pm on Friday. my class rep was supposed to hitch a ride with someone but they took off, forgetting him behind because when we arrived, he took a ride with a lecturer. so they thought he would go back on the same ride... but somehow he did not. so luckily we were still there... and he rode home with us. so i technically rescued a person today :D

then i arrived at 130pm. but @ 5pm, i had to head to seremban for my 21-year old cousin's wedding. yeahhh... she's only 21! sigh... anyway, i didn't want to go because i was bloody tired. but i was given the task to be a make-up artist for the day since my aunt forgot to hire one. i only get to rest at 130am that day.

so today is my good friend, salihah's engagement. i remembered that 10 years ago, she said she didn't want to get married and that we all can kick her butt if she does. well, looks like i have some kicking ass to do :)))))

Like only a woman can

2008-07-22T15:49:00.002+08:00

I wasn’t perfect
I’ve done a lot of stupid things
Still no angel
I wasn’t looking for forgiveness
Wasn’t laid out by my pride
Shocked by her attention
And someone signed me up for love
I didn’t want it
And now I can’t live without it

She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

She’s kind of perfect
She’s kind of everything I’m not
Yeah, she’s an angel
And it’s amazing how she’s patient
Even more at times I’m not
She’s my conscience
And who decided I’d be hers
I wanna hate them
Cos now I can’t live without her

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not a big fan but i thought the song is sweet :)
haih... siapalah jejaka yg sanggup nyanyikan lagu ni utk aku??
kuang kuang kuanggg... hahaha

Fun in the Sun!

2008-07-06T21:33:00.011+08:00

my friends back from matrix and i planned to go on a trip to malacca on the 3rd and the 4th of july. two even took a day off to be part of this trip.

a few days before the trip... specifically speaking, on tuesday, i was called up by my lecturers and they said that my client was not convincing enough that i had to redo report. finding a new client for my project wasn't easy and i was also given only two days to fix it.

i had to resubmit on thursday by noon. i was really bummed so i decided to bail out from the trip. luckily my friends were kind enough to postpone it until i submit that noon.

i slept for only two hours that wednesday and four the day before... but hanging out with my crazy friends, i didn't feel at all sleepy. in fact, when we came back from our visits to the guest house at 1230am, i was still the last person to fall asleep.

malacca's beauty was most seen at night where they have gorgeous lighting on the buildings. we went to jonkerstreet and only to be disappointed by extreme absence of the stalls. perhaps it was due to rain or maybe they only open on weekends... anyway, i blame the cashier at kenny rogers for convincing us that it was open.

we went anyway... although the shops was closed but it was still a beautiful sight. the shophouses were really unique in their own way... in terms of architecture detailing and building use.

here are some photos that i like best :)

with my roundup gang at the kancil guesthouse :) our stay was only for a night and we paid rm20 for a double and a triple. it was a very nice place. although the toilet they had was a common toilet like in the dormitories. but it was a very nice place for a short stay.

at jonkerstreet :D

try the atv... it was really cool... except for the part where i get stuck at the slope! that was really embarrassing!

we head to PD on our way back. took summo crazy photos :)

overall, it was a success despite missing bits here and there... like not knowing the perfect place to eat, one of us caught the flu (a monkey flu to be exact), one of us not having the money... can't wait to do it again :)

after this trip, i had a blissful 15hr sleep... i think i have to pray that i don't get any liver failure soon.

well... let's all hope for a better tomorrow, shall we?

*sigh... school starts tomorrow and i dread it. i want the vacation to last forever!

A Record

2008-06-30T19:13:00.004+08:00

i've never been this frenzy! five blogs a day!

i'm in a sketching frenzy... and James McAvoy is my current victim!

Four too many!

2008-06-30T14:43:00.004+08:00

i know i know... four blogs in one day.

what was i thinking??!

Andy Roddick mu was Andy Roddick ku...

2008-06-30T14:29:00.004+08:00

the key word is WAS! hahah...

i used to love andy roddick. now not anymore. i've grown out of it, i guess.

during that time of my mega admiration towards him... i had 75 sketches of him and i find it embarrassing to admit... verbally that is.

these are a few of my best works.

Understand this...

2008-06-30T13:42:00.005+08:00

we all can be a jerk at times. but so can you. the issue is... do you realize it?

because i do. i am fully aware of my actions and the consequences. and i know i can fix it. but i can't control what you would think. i am not that powerful.

so because of that, because i care, i try to be as nice as i can.

don't start telling me about what a jerk i am when you have been a jerk and i haven't said anything about it.

because i know when or where i screw up and i can fix it... i don't need you telling me because it doesn't make things easier. it makes me feel like shit. and i don't need that from you.

understand this - i don't just stay and live for the moment without considering the consequences of my actions. either good or bad, i am fully aware of it... and i can fix it.

if you let me...

Art PortFolio

2008-06-30T00:22:00.005+08:00

i just started sketching again. sketching is something i've done since i was small. and i can't remember exactly what my drawings was nor kept my drawings back then... but i remember them being awful.

then when i was 13, i started sketching portraits of people. my first was leonardo dicaprio's ;) back then titanic was like a huge thing so... anyway, the sketch was probably in the dumpster or drain... somewhere... it was horrible, that was why.

over 3 years, i started developing my interest. with my art teacher discovering what i have and she was the one that initiated me. in class, we were told to keep out sketches in a loose binding folder. of course, when it's loose, it got lost.

so when i was 16, i decided i should have a sketchbook and have been keeping my drawings since then, either terrible or good... i don't mind. there's indescribable satisfaction when i look through them.

8 years and 10 volumes of sketch book later...

i'm going to post my previous drawings on my blogs next time!

U got... Dihendaki, Jolok!

2008-06-27T23:10:00.003+08:00

Yesterday i went to meet my friends back in matrix to discuss about our holiday plan to Malacca. yeah , we're just going to Malacca... nothing extravagant. anyway, a member was turning up late so my good friend (who is so friggin hillarious and she showed up at Pyramid with a tie-die pants) started to crack up crazy riddles.

the first one was:
Q: if you're standing behind a car, what will the car say?
A: "You got exhausted!"

and the second one goes like this:
Q: if you're standing in front of a car, what will the car say?
A: "You got tired"

hahah... ok it wasn't that funny but the fact she took the liberty to do so while we waited for the other friend and with such passion in delivering it by making a '3D' loser sign with her hand, every time we guessed wrong. a '3D' loser sign is something she made up so that we can see the word 'L' in all angles.

cheesy. but it's funny.

i can always count on her for ridiculous humour. u can never imagine what she would come up with.

after dinner, we all went and catch a movie "wanted". the movie just came out and i desperately wanted to see my hero, James McAvoy. since it's a weekday and i bet there's not many people are going to see, i seized the opportunity by booking in advance. we thought of not claiming the tickets first because we thought no one wanted to watch but luckily we changed our minds and claimed it because it was a full house that night. the movie was brilliant... even if it sucked, i still love my scotsman :) i thought it was a serious typical hitman movie... but apparently, there were a lot of humour and we were laughing hysterically.

anyone watched the trailer? there was this part were angelina jolie was driving a red viper (i think) and she drifted the car to take in James in the passenger side? man that was a cool stunt... but i didn't expect people would clap at the end of the scene. it felt like we were in a circus show. but yeah, the movie did felt like a circus show that night. it was fun.

after the movie, guess what my crazy friend came up with? she started mimicking "wanted" scenes in malay. first translating "wanted" into Malay and pretending she was jolie... only in the malay version, she claimed to be angelina jolok! haha... and jolie's character in the movie is 'fox' whilst jolok's version is called 'musang'. i think i inhaled too much oxygen from the laughing, i actually felt light and was driving a little carelessly. we almost got hit by a car and got a sarcastic greeting from a toll-gate girl. but let me assure u that the almost-accident part wasn't my fault.

so despite a bad end to the night, it was fun.

can't wait for the road trip to Malacca!

2008-06-26T15:25:00.001+08:00

i so can relate to this... har har har!

Architects are like Prostitutes

2008-06-25T20:05:00.004+08:00

1. You work weird (night time) -
Overtime ...
Just like prostitutes.

2. They pay you to make the client happy...
Just like a prostitute.

3. The client pays a lot of money, but
your employer keeps almost every
penny...
Just like a prostitute.

4. You are rewarded for fulfilling the
client's dreams...
Just like a prostitute.

5. Your friendships fall apart and you
end up hanging out with people in
the same profession as you...
Just like a prostitute.

6. When you have to meet the client you
always have to be perfectly
groomed...
Just like a prostitute.

7. But when you go back home it seems
like you are coming back from
hell...
Just like a prostitute.

8. The client always wants to pay less
but expects incredible things
from you...
Just like a prostitute.

9. When people ask you about your job,
you have difficulties to explain
it...
Just like a prostitute.

10. Everyday when you wake up, you say:
"I'm not going to spent the rest
of my life doing this."
Just like a prostitute.

-got this from a jr's blog-

The Last King of Scotland

2008-06-24T15:00:00.002+08:00

I just recently saw the movie from the satellite TV network system. i missed the first hour of the movie. and since my Scottish hero is on, i decided to stay glued to the TV, even though it frustrates me not knowing how Dr. Garrigan and the previous Ugandan president, Idi Amin met.

Only when my mother, who was a history teacher, joined me to watch that I only find out that the movie was based on actual events. The dictator/president character was based on a real-life character. Idi Amin was a Muslim... and it scared me to know the fact that a Muslim leader can be so terrifying when Islam is all about peace and humility. and it makes me appreciate more that I'm here in Malaysia, although facing political and economic instability, I still feel safe.

Dr. Garrigan 's character was Idi Amin's physician. Although his character was fictional, it was one that caught me (not the fact that James McAvoy played it). Although missing the whole section where he and Idi Amin officially met, i understand that he came to Uganda in need of recognition. however, after 6 years of being Idi Amin's closest advisor, he suddenly realized that his need for recognition has blinded him. It makes me think that we shouldn't just stay and live for the moment without considering of the consequences of our actions. Yes, we all want to achieve so many things and be recognized, be known, needed, wanted, loved or let me put in Jerry Maguire's term - we all want the 'kwan'.

but let's not forget the kwans we already have - our families and friends.

but bravo to Forest Whitaker for his performance as Idi Amin. He earned his Oscar for best actor. At first, i resented his win because i thought Leonardo Dicaprio should earn it for his performance in the Departed. but after i saw this movie, i finally found out that his acting outperformed dicaprio's by a mile.

It's not just about the right time...

2008-06-23T23:16:00.004+08:00

so i have been repeatedly asked by traditional, conservative mothers the FAQ - when am i going to get married?

by my age, these traditional and conservative mothers are already married or some even already have their first child by now. not to say being traditional and conservative is bad. half of my friends are married or already have their first child by now. they're lucky they've found someone they love and want to spend the rest of their lives with.

so maybe my journey for 'the one' is a little further than the rest. so maybe it is the right time for me to get married... but marriage is not about because it's the right time to get married, it's also about finding the right person to be married to.

yeah... i maybe a little picky. but its actually more that, well metaphorically speaking, i just haven't found someone who is made to finish my duet (hahah! thanks to Enchanted). so i can't say i'm picky. because all the criterias that i want in a guy has been completely useless. i have no criterias at all now. when he's the one, he's the one... even if the guy has all the total opposite of the criterias u have in ur list.

so we are all growing old and the time might have been right for us to settle down all along since we reached puberty but hey, if u haven't find the right person yet, would u want to be married just simply it was the time to?

no right?

so what's wrong with waiting a little longer, what's wrong with being miserable watching everyone else with their happily ever after so that u can eventually find yours?

because it's not just about the right time...

(with reference from mrs. faiza mohd fauzi and from the movie - definitely maybe)

Sebastian and Rosalinda

2008-06-21T19:01:00.002+08:00

this is a funny video done by UM architecture student... (i'm only part as the audience and not the makers). won first runner up of the USM workshop 2008 for the animation category! good job, guys!

hillarious!

Angel

2008-06-07T04:29:00.002+08:00

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

by sarah mclachlan

sarah mclachlan is a beautiful singer/songwriter, who may not seem the most popular singer next to britney spears alike... but only because she was hardly given justice by Malaysian fans.

EMPTY

2008-06-03T23:32:00.005+08:00

have u ever feel like u have everything in this world but still feel like u miss something? it makes u even more sad that u actually don't know what's missing.
how can u appreciate what u have when u feel empty?
are we all on the right track in getting what we want in this world?
maybe it is more meaningful if we do it for God and for afterlife...

maybe we should all just quit... whatever we are doing

and meditate...

*i miss my cat... dani! come home please! save us the embarrassment of circulating posters of u to our neighbours and extended neighbours!

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Or will we end up getting hurt
Is this love a myth
So tell me are you in for this
There's so much more than we can see
More than you
More than me
It takes two to believe!

Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why when you're young you fall in love

And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love

by the click 5

Kembalilah

2008-05-26T01:07:00.004+08:00

suddenly the song rings in my head as i came back from rantai event at the annexe gallery, central market. rantai is an event organizer to help expose newcomer bands. anyway, good job! acoustic night was great!

and thanks tuan puteri ammy temankan patik yg menjunjung titah lecturer jabatan senibina.

anyway, the song that suddenly rings in my head is the theme song from 'cinta korporat'. i'm not sure if u remember that series from a TV3 segment called 'identity'(if i'm not mistaken). it was back when azhar sulaiman looked... young :D
the theme song was by amy mastura called 'kembalilah'. was wondering if any of u indie bands interested in doing a cover version. just a thought :)
if u don't know what the heck am i talking about. here's a hint >>>

Kasihku usia sudah cintamu
Cinta yang kudamba selama ini
Mengapa kau biarkan terjadi
Rasanya ku tak percaya semua ini

Aku masih menyayangimu
Ku tak ingin semua berlalu
Bila mungkin engkau kembali
Kembalilah kembali padaku
Seperti waktu yang dulu
Bermanja kita berdua
Hanya engkau yang mengerti
Tentang aku

Ku rasa hari-hari sepiku
Tanpa canda tawa bersamamu
Katakan apa salah diriku
Yang selalu tulus setia kepadamu

Where Are Thou, Love?

2008-05-21T19:49:00.003+08:00

Dani has been missing for three days. First time he's been missing this long. Rama misses you. We miss you... :,((((

COME HOME, DANI!!! dating ngan new girlfriend pon, blk la rumah makan... jumpa mak ayah... ishhhh!

Treat People How u Want to be Treated

2008-05-18T20:03:00.002+08:00

i believe so much in the quote. u treat people how u want to be treated. basically, i treat people how i want them to treat me. however, the tables would definitely turn if they treat me... well, not in a way that i would like it. thus... i treat them by HOW they treat me in the first place. it's only fair isn't it?

well... it's true some of us like to do our own thing and stuffs. but hey, if they can do it... why can't i? i like to do my own stuffs too with certain people. so if friendship matters, they'd value my opinion and also value me.

anyway... talking about doing my own stuffs with certain people. i went out with my sisters today. we went to OU. oh and yesterday, i went to the curve AND OU. and shopped for a watch... cost me rm250! haha... but the retail was rm499 so it was a good buy. so today, i went on and pamper myself and bought me a pair of jean, two necklaces and two pairs of shoes! i have to hide them from my mom. she'd kill me if she knew i bought another pair of shoes. before that, we watched What Happens in Vegas. i underestimated that movie. but hey, the movie was loads of fun!

i heart ashton kutcher!!!

indieGENIUS - life as a design thesis begins!

2008-05-16T00:17:00.004+08:00

I haven't told u about my second proposal. we were suppose to present two proposals on thursday. up to tuesday night, i haven't a clue on my second proposal but i've firmed up on my first topic, which was the Environmental Awareness Centre. i was pretty confident with the first topic. having read a lot of materials and even watching documentary movies for it. i really wanted the project 'cause i kind of have an idea what it'll turn out. but i have to comply to my lecturer's instructions - the second proposal.

at first, i thought of taking it lightly so i'll end up with the first but there are cases when they don't accept both... then i'll end up with having nothing but probably a bruised ego. so i went looking for my second topic. i was browsing the internet for something i really have deep interest with - arts/culture. and i came across this street art graffiti on the walls of a building in Malaysia.

I thought, hey that's really cool... but i bet DBKL will have them clean in no time. so i thought it's pretty unfair for the graffiti artist to have his work done but only acknowledged as a work of vandalism and damaging public property. so i thought of having a centre for street art for them to express their art in a more positive way. having discussed this further with a friend, i kind of doubted this because i am suppose to proposing an 'architecture' in the end... and a street is not 'architecture'. and my friend told me why don't you try Indie Arts? it suddenlt triggers an idea! because i've always love Indie arts but i didn't notice it because i love a lot of things ;)

i chatted up with a few friends from other architecture schools, who are indie artists and asked them what they thought of the Centre.4.Independent Arts? and they thought they were cool. it got me even more excited when i get positive feedbacks from Indie artists. so i studied further...

The most general definition of the word is to be independent from the mainstream. The word has become most often associated with a subculture defined by its associated music, fashion, behavior and beliefs. Indie culture is an avant-garde lifestyle which follows social trends that are considered to consciously deviate from the mainstream. One common belief within indie culture is anti-conformity. The major influence for the indie culture came out of the indie music scene, associated with the DIY culture to the arts. Many followers of the indie culture are associated with local independent art and music scenes.

from the star online, June 2006,
The textbook definition of the word indie was derived from the term “independent”, forming its ethos around the notion that being indie meant being independent from the mainstream (a simplistic description, but one that cuts to the core). But the term has taken a whole new meaning over the years, used as a means to describe a niche subculture, its fashion and of course, the music involved. Not many indie acts can boast continuity and popularity here.

The issues i've looked into are that Indie Culture has become a subculture in Malaysia but they are often seen as bad influence (vandalism etc). Artists often have to travel to spread their creativity but they don’t have that much money. So to solve this, hence the Indie Cultural Centre, which i'm attempting to call indieGENIUS. so the aims and objectives of the centre is to create a centre as a medium for the indie artists to collaborate, exchange ideas and spread the movement and as a transitional stage or to help the artists go a step further in their pursuit of stardom. A centre as a culture check on the movement so that it won’t portray bad influences to fans and artists alike. A community/commercial to market indie arts.

So it's more like a cultural arts centre. rather than defining it as the conventional Malay cultural or chinese or india cultural arts... i'm doing it indie style. Indie cultural arts centre a.k.a indieGENIUS!

wish me luck!

btw, i havent printed my other presentation board but i was already sleepy. this was 6am (note that, i didn't sleep for 24 running hours) presentation starts at 9.50am so i figured i'd wake up at 830am and i can leave the house by 9am. get the thing printed by 930 and zoomed off to faculty. but after, what felt like a few seconds of laying my head down, i got a phone call from a friend. i woke up and it was too late to answer it. and i notice the room was all bright - daylit bright. and i saw the clock says, 10am!!! shiiiiiiiiiittttt!!! the first thing i felt like doing was cry... or scold someone... but it was my fault and carelessness so i had to be responsible for it on my own.

i arrived at the faculty at 11 am. at the moment when i came in, a fellow peer was presenting his proposal - one of it happens to be a street art centre... which was totally denied by the lecturers... so am i lucky or what??? fiuhhhh~ what.a.day!

Environmental Awareness Centre Proposal

2008-05-13T15:25:00.006+08:00

i saw the movie documentary - The Inconvenient Truth and The 11th Hour. there are some people who say that the movies are scare tactics schemed by certain parties. so what if they are scare tactics? we should be scared of what's happening with our environment now.

What we're doing now will affect our children in the near future. It may not happen in my lifetime but i don't want my children to suffer the consequences of what we did today in the name of our selfishness, in the name of economy and politics.

Quoted from 'The 11th Hour',
We live in a human-created environment, where it is very easy to think that we’re different from other creatures. We are smart, we create our own habitat and we don’t need nature. Our attitudes are based on selfishness, based on the economic and politics situation we have. It is time that we take the environmental crisis for what it is. This planet is our only home. If we destroy it, there is no where else for us to go.

However, to solve environmental crisis takes a global action and we, as Malaysians, should start doing our parts. In order to change people’s minds and hearts is a matter of lifting level of awareness. Gary Tooze, from the same movie, mentioned that Deepak Chopra quoted,
"people are really doing the best they can given their level of awareness"

Malaysia has signed global warming treaty in 1993 but what exactly has Malaysia done in our part? we may not suffer the effects of greenhouse gases as much as other countries but floods and drastic change of weather are warnings from nature. And last year's devastating storm in Johor is also a warning. And if the northern hemisphere is flooded with water, there will be millions of refugees and where they might head? Our country may be flooded with not just water but millions of refugees.

The issues I've looked into is that the governmental and non-governmental bodies that fight for our environment are located in remote areas. Why must a nature society hq be located in remote areas? Why can't it be located in the middle of urban center where they are more people to educate and problems to be solved?
Second issue is that the architecture of the nature society hq does not reflect their mission in environmental defense.
Third issue will be Malaysians are still unaware of the environmental issues namely the global warming.

Hence, my design thesis proposal - Environmental Awareness Center

The aims and objectives of this thesis proposal is to create an iconic building where it shall be a medium to educate people about sustainable architecture and to highlight the mission of nature society through architecture. Secondly, the center will also serve as a green lung in central urban area because creating more parks and green spaces in urban areas could cool cities by up to 4°C – possibly enough to offset the warming from climate change – say researchers. Thirdly is to educate and to instill environmental awareness amongst Malaysians and constantly remind the public of the importance of conserving the environment.

So perhaps this design thesis proposal will be accepted because i really want to do this. I've developed an interest for the environment within two weeks, thanks to Al Gore's The Inconvenient Truth. The world, our only home, is going to be destroyed by us humans... and surface temperature will rise sooner or later but right now, it is at accelerating rate. And it takes a global solution to help solve it and it's about time Malaysians unite to fight global warming! :))))

Yesterday was a success!

2008-05-12T15:22:00.002+08:00

as u all know... yesterday was mother's day. i wasn't sure how to celebrate yet but thank God, my dad rang me up and said that he and my mom are out somewhere and he told me to go get a cake and give her a surprise celebration when they get back. i somehow think my dad instructed me not like a dad to a daughter but like a boss to his staff. he told me that they'd be back in half an hour.

it was impossible to get things done before that. first, i had to get the cake and a card and make sure everyone in the house sign it (mind u, my family is the size of the brady bunch) so i told my dad that it couldn't be done and let's do it after maghrib prayers. my dad agreed.

so i put aside my work that's due on the 15th and went out to get a cake and a card and all. luckily i told my dad that it can't be done within half an hour. well it took me forty-five minutes just to purchase a blueberry cheese cake and a card.

after my younger sister and i returned, we tried our best to avoid Mom who was tending to her orchids. we sneaked into my brothers' room. (my mom hardly goes there. don't know why though...). and started decorating the presents we got her. yeah, i said decorating because we got her new orchids to add to her collection. it was a bit impossible to be wrapping them as they are so delicate and are already beautiful by themselves.

so when the time draws near. my dad was in charge in escorting my mom, who had no clue. we all were already downstairs and i angled an orchid and the card towards the staircase, in hope that when Mom goes down the flight, that would be the first thing she sees. and it worked! my mom was smiling widely and said, 'awwww' and kissed all her children. the living/dining area was so full of love that i felt it was almost warm.

we had the cake and gave her the other two orchids. she was so pleased that she wanted to frame the pictures of her and the orchids we took. we told her that it was ayah's idea to give her a surprise and also that we're sorry that we purposely didn't wish her earlier. it was due to the surprise.

what did i write in the card? i told her, i wouldn't be the person i am right now if it weren't for her.

yesterday was a success! today is my older sister's birthday. tomorrow is still a question... but let's hope for a better tomorrow.

New layout!!!

2008-05-11T12:00:00.003+08:00

New Layout of my 24th year in life and my 2nd yr in blogging!

the reason for new layout is that i suddenly feel older today. and i'm starting to appreciate what i have around me. rather than questionning... i should start embracing.
the photo is taken in angkor wat, cambodia, when i was on a school trip to siem reap. angkor wat has the most beautiful setting i have ever seen. great lighting, great panorama, great architecture. the cambodians civilization are far more advance than they seem they are. it's all due to war... what a waste...

i just took a shot of my leg for this blog as a symbol that feet is an important part of the body.

because it takes u to places. it takes u through time.

and my feet has taken me a long way... beside making my shoes worn out ;) my feet has taken me to a better tomorrow...

enjoy ma peeps!

24 and counting...

2008-05-11T00:30:00.002+08:00

Happy 31st mothers' day to my mom!

the most completed woman in the world!
- has a successful hubby of a successful 31 years of marriage (so far!!)
- has six wonderful kids!
- has a pair of adorable grandkids.
- a well-to-do family
- a superb cook and tauke roti arab terhebat!
- most of all... she's a mother :,)))))

and how can other people say their mums are the greatest??? they don't know how great u are yet! all my love to u, mak!

anyway... although it is mothers' day...

i suddenly feel older today... sigh*

Why?

2008-05-10T23:38:00.003+08:00

Lies hurt more
than the truth
why do I live
in self pity
and expect disappointment
more then optimism
or does enjoyment
lead me to new
worlds which I can not
live on
the air is getting
thin and I want to
stay for some time
too bad I can not
live in my dreams
for then utopia would be
reached wouldn't it

by Stanley Naber

it's beautiful isn't it? the poem i mean? this is something i can definitely relate to. we live in a world with all sorts of people. but they are easier categorized based on our dislikes and likes. personally, i loathe hypocrites... they're so much meaner than those people who keeps secrets (although secrets tend to unfold by itself) or even much more worse than people who tell lies.

for starters, they think you're stupid because they think they know u. and because they think they know you, they try to make u feel important at the time when they need u but the least when they think the time isn't necessary to share with u. all that in hope you wouldn't notice the whole agenda behind it.

but most of the time, you notice it... especially when they are not careful.

and it hurts.
no matter how much you try to understand.

it's not that i live in self-pity or self-disappointment.
but i pity them and disappointed in them for not knowing me for who i am but what they think i am.

i'm only questioning myself 'why?'

Imagine...

2008-05-10T04:10:00.002+08:00

Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

>>>---> I <3 THIS SONG! i usually dont listen to the beatles so i thank u david archuleta for performing this beautiful song on american idol... otherwise i wouldnt have known it.

ROOTING FOR DAVID ARCHULETA ;*******!!! and the world will live as one ;))))

KaChing! KaChing!

2008-05-06T16:48:00.007+08:00

i just got rm 1,666 from me sugar daddy. for a bday present. don't believe me???

note the date. it is on my bday!

kidding lar... actually... my two other friends and i just won first prize in this architectural competition held by MNS and Optima. a whole rm5000 so split by three... hence the .66... don't believe me???

i had to walk from the lrt pasar seni to menara dayabumi. it was so damn hot and i was wearing black. can u imagine how much heat i was absorbing? don't believe me???

< thats moi in the middle and on me left and right is Mr. Kong Seng Yeap (best PAM student!) and Mr. Iskandar (who recently became a father to a second child! Congrats!)>

that's when i got inspired to choose this site for my design thesis. anyway, i hate that street. i was crossing that street to get to the lrt and it was green for us pedestrians and red for vehicles. and some drivers just dont get it... so since it was green, i took my own sweet time to cross and i notice a blue wira didnt want to stop but eventually he did slow down to let me through. after i past him, this guy on a motorcycle (would not mention race here) and he simply refuses to stop and he THINKS he can scare me with the last minute brake. but hell no! i looked at him in the eye and told him, *'MERAH!' and walked off.

obviously i bruised his ego... i dont know how much but basically, i'm pretty happy that i managed to do so. cause the guy kinda vroomed away furiously. what a loser... prick... i dont care if u hate me cursing... sue me :P

well... to summarize yesterday... i was late for the ceremony, got lost looking for the lobby of dayabumi, soaked with sweat when i got there, got my camera tangled with my name tag leash and earphones when my name was announced to receive the prize, almost got hit by a car and a motorcycle... in the end, KaChing! KaChing! i'm rm1,666.66 richer today :DDDDDD and lived to blog about it ;))))))

* merah - red

Post labour day

2008-05-02T15:09:00.003+08:00

yesterday i was out with two other good friends... also joined by another at 3pm. we went to OU and caught 3 movies from 9am to 5pm.

first movie is 'over her dead body'. all right before someone turns me in, i admit this movie was premiered in my guest room. hahaha... we couldnt find a 3rd movie that was appealing enough so we had to cheat. we paid rm10 nevertheless... so same difference! the movie was ok... i especially love lake bell's performance. i've never seen her before. so watching her for the first time, i'd give her A+ for her performance. if anybody is doubting to see this... i'd say that lake bell and paul rudd won't disappoint u in the laughing department.

the second movie is 'fool's gold'. i wasn't that intrigue to watch but as i heard matthew mcconaughey and kate hudson joining forces again, i thought this would be as much fun as 'how to lose a guy in 10 days'. however, there's more action in this new movie. like treasure hunting, mentor-turned-nemesis, a ruthless rapper called bigbunny, a major blond ( but not blond) socialite called gemma and a yacht owned by a billionaire, the 'precious gem'. to make things much more simpler... like simon cowell would say, forgettable but there's one thing i wont forget is gemma honeycutt. i think there's a little bit of her in all of us.

the third movie is 'forbidden kingdom'. the only out of the three that i really want to watch. only because i've been wanting to see jet li and jackie chan in one movie. i've been more of a jackie chan fan than jet li. jet li was too serious for me. but apparently, in this movie... he proved otherwise. superb kungfu performance by all even that sky high boy, michael angarano. he must've put a lot of effort in making it real. although there are a few boring moments in this but hey, there's jet li and jackie chan in it. that's all needed to make the movie successful. i think... ;)

and we head of to william for dinner. there are three people but only ordered meals for two. don't worry. the meals are a size for 1.5 of each girl actually. so two meals and drinks was more than enough. in fact, we couldn't finish it... ha ha... two meals cost rm62!what a crazy rip-off, isnt it? but we all still love william...

anyway, as this all happen... there was a fatal accident involving 2 UiTM students, whom both are friends of my older brother. They were both on a motorcycle, which actually belongs to the passenger, not the driver. the owner happens to have a fever and asked his friend to drive. and it so happens that, when they were at a traffic light, waiting for the green light. this smart honda crv driver accelerated as the light turned yellow and still going as it turned red and as the other lane was turning green. so there was a collision between two cars and the crv bounced over the divider and towards the two motorcyclist, who had no time to blink. the passenger was thrown off, survived with a few scratches. but the the driver was caught under the crv together with the motorcycle and dragged a few metres away. he died on the way to the hospital.

there was so much 'what if' questions that could be raised. what if the honda had not rammed in the traffic light? what if the other car had seen the honda speeding by? what if the owner of the motorcycle was the driver instead of the passenger?
the boy was my age and he could've just been a witness to another accident instead of the victim.

it's not our place to question God's methods. we should in fact embrace them.

it was his time. that's all. no matter how careful u are on the road, someone else might make a mistake and u have to pay for it.

and we should embrace it by reciting 'Al-fatihah' for him and not take our lives for granted as for Allah SWT can take us anytime. it also made me feel guilty for enjoying so much on labour day.

May Allah SWT blessed the soul of our brother. Al-fatihah... amin.

Life begins!

2008-04-30T00:15:00.002+08:00

as i'm writing this, my holiday officially begins. i just finished my last assignment. tomorrow morning i'm going to have them bind and submitted.

so life is a design thesis begins... here goes...

wish me luck!

Answer: Is it two or three?

2008-04-20T14:13:00.004+08:00

okay... a friend asked about girls exchanging air kisses when they meet or they bid their goodbyes. some does it three times... some does it twice.

the reason behind the three is because the customs from Arab... there, the greeting Assalamualaikum is associated with three light kisses. we've stereotyped Arabs as Islam and thus their customs has technically become ours. it's only customary. you do it or you don't... there's nothing wrong with that.

and how would you differentiate friends that does three or two? okay... first, don't stiff yourself when you blow your kisses. that way, it won't feel so awkward in case a friend is giving a third. always... anticipate the third kiss. even if it's not there... don't worry. no harm done. but to recognize this 3-kisses friend, they're usually more conservative, laid-back, religious (by relative) type. but you can't really predict actually. so it's best not to stiff yourself.

i'm a 3-kisses friend. but i can be flexible. i know that most friends usually does the 2-kiss greeting. i don't force people into the third kiss. but i don't stiff myself when i do.

so remember folks... don't be a stiff. ha ha ha!

tune in for more next week!

ps: my triplets kittens names >>>---> orange stripes are Robbie and Akhir and the female black striped is April.
i usually named my cats after their birth month. except for their mother. didn't have the inspiration back then.

Tuning is a Mommy again...

2008-04-19T20:34:00.003+08:00

my cat, Tuning, gave birth to triplet kittens today. i suspect the father was the ugly stray cat, who probably raped my cat. i saw her giving birth last night... which was disgusting but yet, i think, the most miraculous thing to watch.

haven't named them yet. my mom was thinking of giving it away because this would mean we'll have 6 cats. The first batch of twins by my cat is Rama and Dhani. they were born during the fasting month, Ramadhan. now is Rabiulakhir... so it's tough naming the triplets.

Rabi... Ula... Khir???

haha... nasty...

Remember Me?

2008-04-15T21:12:00.003+08:00

i'm reading a book. ok, i was suppose to be studying or doing my assignments since finals are coming up. but i can't put this book down. i'm hardly halfway through the book. and i think it's really interesting even though a bit disbelieving that someone can change so much within three years.

i was thinking. if i had an accident and that cost me my memories of 3 years, would i recognize myself and people around me? pretty much, i still think i am the same person i was 3 years ago... except a few new wardrobe and a new 'tudung' style.

and maybe except how i learn to appreciate and accept things or other people more. i may not open up that easily. i may give u something but it turns out the other. i learn to keep things to myself more and also not rely on other people so much as i rely on God.

are the people around me the same? no... some has gone overseas to study, experienced foreign cultures. some has work from 9 to 5 and earn bonuses at the end of the year. the only bonus i get is during raya and that doesnt even cover 1% of what my friends earn. some got severely huge crush, some got married, engaged... some got new car, laptops, handphones... basically they can stand on their own two feet. i, on the other hand, have to still find out if i'm capable of doing so.

i just found out a friend of mine got pregnant. that's another change within 3 years. was it TMTH, as quoted by Daniel Noriega from AI7... considering all that happened in a space of 3 years... yeah, it was TMTH. but a happy news nevertheless. all my doa's go to her.

a year from now, i'm hoping to earn my B.Arch.

until then, let's hope i don't get a 3-year memory black-hole. or if i do, let's hope i wake up to a good-looking, multimillionaire husband. ha ha...

Remember Me? by Sophie Kinsella

This Is A Scene, This Ain't an Arms Race

2008-04-14T21:54:00.006+08:00

i'm trying to beat someone at blogging. her current speed is 57b/y and increasing! btw, b/y means blogs per year. i'm only at the speed of 44b/y, but anyway... this ain't a race.

this is life. MY life.

so am i allowed to be emo without u bothering me, iskandar?

i had a little race actually. with a driver, in this context i would like to call J. so J refused to let me into an exit. to annoy me, J deliberately accelerated even though i gave signal i think even the short-sighted would eventually be able to see. almost missing my exit, i finally made it behind J's car but i gave a long blaring horn... just to let J know how pissed i was.

i should've been a race car driver. what J did simply increased my adrenaline and suddenly i felt the competition. i took over J's car and gave J the 'look' and as if to test my faith, J, in return, gave me the 'look' too. as i pass J, i saw in the rear view mirror that J did a hand gesture as if saying, y don't u use your head, lady?

excuse me... J was being an ass and J's telling me to use my head. i don't listen to asses, sweetie.

just to ignite the fire, J took over me again and i caught a glimpse of something. a red sticker at the back of J's car. a 'P' sticker.

no wonder.

Definitely... Maybe...

2008-04-12T23:13:00.002+08:00

I started this blog in april 2007 and this will only be my 42nd post.

Someone else started in february this year and ended up having 54 posts already.

So either i didnt have such a luxury of time or she has nothing better to do ;) Ha-Ha!

Anyway, i saw Definitely Maybe today. very sweet and romantic movie. only a few of ryan reynolds performance i really like. he really cant get the stereotype funny-cute-romantic guy look off him. but i cant really blame him for this one - the character really suited him well. wait. i rephrase - it suited him perfectly.

this review does not contain spoiler like the recently-reached-54posts-within-2-months blog. i just thought there were a lot of scenes from the movie that were really sweet. i really cant get over it and also... it makes me think. is there such guy out there? i mean literally here in malaysia. i don't know... maybe i'm too swooned by english words rather than malay. it's not that i'm not loving my mother tongue. i speak my mother tongue. but love words in malay are elaborated and long and i almost find it embarrassing.

"i kept it for years because it's the only thing i have that reminds me of you"
short. direct. sweet. but impactful. oops... theres's no such word. it's influential. effective bottom line.

the father-daughter relationship was also tear jerking. maybe its because his daughter portray too much of a smart girl. i cant remember having those thoughts back when i was 11. maybe i did. but it was bloody 13 years ago and i cant remember it. ha ha... but abigail breslin's performance was always superb. i definitely loved her in little miss sunshine, no reservations, raising helen... one of the biggest talent in child acting, i'd give her that.

"Dad, I can't believe you drank... and smoked... and was such a slut... But I still love you."

i dont remember saying things like that when i was 11. oh wait. my dad was never a drinker but he smoked way before i was born and he definitely wasnt a slut.

GO SEE NOW! but not as first dates... it's too much for a first date. seriously. watch with girlfriends and you'll have a major post-movie conversation after that.

i know i did.

Was in a Cave for the past few weeks and still in it...

2008-04-08T12:02:00.005+08:00

i was supposed to be doing work. but i got really sick of looking at it really. just got a little bit more to go. but im so darned tired right now... my body isnt tired - i just had a 6-hr sleep which is considered a luxury for us architecture students. but my mind is utterly tired... numb... cant think anymore.

i've been quarantining myself from my outer archistudents-circle friends for almost a month now. missed them terribly. miss having free weekends... and spend $$$ carelessly.

so i've been too absorbed in my work... i've lost contact from the outside world. like a monk on meditation, like someone in search of something that i'm not even sure of . so i quit searching. i should start appreciating. i thought, what the heck... family and friends are everything. work/money are things in between... if i am going to look for something i have no clue about, i better take care what i have got a hold of. i'm sorry friends... i dont know what ive put ahead of me is less important than what ive left behind.

now i realize it. but whatever i decide, Allah SWT is with me. my family and friends are with me.

i have no regrets.

this course has turned me from a soft jell-o to a rock. and i hope to stay as a rock until the end of it. i do have passion for it... but i have more passion for something. something more... permanent - that is... the after-life. whatever i do now that is not entirely fulfilling, i better do as much as it would satisfy me... not others. i've learned what i can from the 1st yr until now. although it's in the hands of my teachers to pass me... but i really want to get out from this 'cave' soon... and God help me, i will... pray with me, folks... help me get through this 'cave'...

ps: i really dont mind going through puberty twice because i really want to go back to my Sri Aman days... waaaa... easy carefree dorky life!

Gone Rasta Gone!

2008-03-11T20:45:00.002+08:00

on saturday, i went to the curve and met with some friends from my former school.
we shopped at the flea market and then watched movie at cineleisure.

watched vantage point.
loved the plot. loved how the way the story was told.
but there was too much suspense that it was really killing me and my friends!

after movie, we were going for dinner.
the only thing i could think of is rasta - close. fast. cheap.
nana and ai ling agreed.
drove happily and arriving at the place.
only to notice a huge empty land.
i was like, since when this huge parking lot is here?
but it was actually where Rasta was...
we were like, what??!!! but then laughed our butts off for not knowing it was gone for quite some time!

embarrassed. we headed uptown.

Election

2008-03-08T10:59:00.003+08:00

Today is election day and i'm voting for the first time.

Kind of nervous because i'm not sure of the procedure even though it is actually so simple but that made me even more nervous because i really dont want to make a fool out of myself for not understanding how to do simple stuffs.

Anyway, it went ok. i ticked which party i'm rooting for and place them in the box and that's it. my job as a malaysian citizen was done!

i was proud that i took a role of establishing our government although there are some nasty truth and hidden agendas that i know myself that they are not pleasing. i think a lot of times you have to play dirty in politics. like the saying, 'do a little evil to do greater good'.

so to all of you, who haven't registered yet to vote. please do so... even one vote matters!

MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!

Wedding Marathon!

2008-03-01T18:11:00.005+08:00

Hey avid readers aka Aishah... haha...

i slept for about 19 hrs last night. well not straigth of course...
was really tired. I had a submission marathon last week, which falls on wednesday, thursday AND friday.
and this weekend is a wedding marathon... Eppy's wedding is the afternoon...
she's so darned gorgeous... cant believe it was last 3 weeks my mother tried to match-make her with my brother!
Fizah's wedding is during the night and i love her Morrocon setting! and to hope that my pics doesnt turn out in one of her publicly premiered wedding videos (like the one i appeared in faiza's wedding!) was no use! i was there together with other prefects... zoomed in right next to her face! cant believe she still have that photo! ha ha!
Anyway... here are the photos!

interpretation: Aishah's coming! Hurry, Awan... snap it already!

told ya...

On fizah's wedding...

a little bit of camwhoring first

When Are You Going to Get Married???

2008-02-28T14:36:00.008+08:00

Ok... this is FAQ i am currently receiving from all the mums in my family tree. Other related questions are such:
1. Do u have a boyfriend?
2. Why don't u have a boyfriend?

and subsequently leads to FAQ number 3

3. WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO GET MARRIED???

I am four and twenty when i write this. and yes, most mothers were married with kids by my age and my answer to question number 1 is YES, tons of them so it's hard to pick one. No really... i have None...
And this leads to the answer to FAQ number 2:

1. I am no feminist but I am perhaps the one of the most scariest, unapproachable woman on earth (to guys that is) and going to be even more scarier after i wrote this - i suck at commitments, i talk to a guy like a guy, very independent, very firm about her stands, hates it when guys only talk to me because they want a relationship with me especially when they hardly know me and i'm the type who lets be friends first and see where it goes and trust me... it would take a lot of effort to sweep me off my feet.

2. I just don't have the time for relationships right now. I'm so busy juggling my assignments and i hardly keep in touch with my girlfriends... let alone attempting to find a boyfriend.

3. Despite all the above, i am still very reserved. I wait for the guy to make the first move and right now, there isnt any. perhaps due to the reasons above. and also, I haven't found the right guy yet... i want my next boyfriend to be my future husband. And till then... i rather stay single... uncommitted...

And the answer to FAQ number 3:

I am going to get married when i found my husband. FULL STOP!

Mothers, don't u get it that it does not only stressful to u that your daughters might turn into a spinster but we are even more stressed when u ask us those questions. For a muslim, when mothers ask us to do something and we do... but this is simply out of our hands really... it's no simple task like go out and buy fish... especially for girls like me...

Let me do the worrying ok? And let God set the path of my life. If i am going to get married... then i am. If my fate is to live a lonely life, who are we, as slaves of God, to question His methods? God has mysterious ways... we should just embrace what He gives us.

So to all mothers with single daughters out there... stop bombarding us with those FAQs.

To ALL single girls out there, who receives the same FAQs... i feel you!

"happy just the way i am, thank you very much!" as quoted by Faiza!

BBQ Splash Part 2!!!

2008-02-24T18:52:00.009+08:00

Lesson # 3: How to fight back the people-throwing munkees?
Presenting Exhibit C >>>---->

Syed put up a hell of a fight! Bravo!

Lesson # 4: Despite being thrown... u should have a good time!
Displaying all exhibits!

Lesson # 5: Don't have to much of a good time... or else you'll burn the chicken... or almost set the house on fire... like we did
Presenting Exhibit D >>>---->

BBQ Splash Part 1!!!

2008-02-24T18:23:00.003+08:00

Lesson #1: How to turn a harmless bbq/karaoke party into a people-throwing pool party?
Presenting Exhibit A >>>---->

Lesson #2: How to throw people into the pool?
Answer : Grab him by the arms and legs... also... by the hair
Presenting Exhibit B >>>---->

With You by Chris Brown

2008-02-19T09:23:00.003+08:00

Need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight
I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight

Hey lil mama, ooh you're a stunner
Hot little figure, yes you a winner, and
I'm so glad to be yours
You're a class of your own and
Ooh little cutie, when you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart and
I'm so glad that you're mine
You are one of a kind, and
You mean to me what I mean to you
And together baby there is nothing we won't do

'Cause if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my heart

And oh, I'm into you and
Girl no one else would do
With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... girl
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... Oh girl

I don't want nobody else
Without you there's noone left, and
You're like Jordans on Saturday
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now
Hey lil shorty, say you care for me
You know I care for you
You know that I will be true
You know that I won't lie
You know that I will try
Be your everything
[ With You lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

'Cause if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my heart

Oh, I'm into you and
Girl no one else would do
With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... Yeah

And I will never try
To deny that you are my whole life
'Cause if you ever let me go
I would die so I won't run
I don't need another woman
I just need you or nothing
'Cause if I got that
Then I'll be straight
Baby you're the best part of my day

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight
They need their boo
They gotta see their boo
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight
Hearts all over the world tonight

And oh, I'm into you and
Girl no one else would do
With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh(girl)
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you...
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you...
Baby yeah

I HEART THIS SONG!!!

NEW Layout...

2008-02-18T03:46:00.004+08:00

Shouldve print-screened the previous ones and posted.

Learnt my lesson so i'm putting this before forgetting again =)

Aishah-Shazuin Friendship (as based on Astrological Signs)

2008-02-17T17:19:00.005+08:00

Aishah was born a Sagittarius. I'd agree that a Sagittarius is classed as positive and an extrovert sign considering who Aishah is. According to astrology, Sagis are mostly arrogant, know-it-all, clumsy, overly curious, a rebel and a drama queen... and i can go on all day. However, despite all that... she's one of my longest best buddies... sorry, Nana came first (14 bloody years!) and then comes you and Faiza (11 bloody years!). I'm a taurean and Taurus and Sagittarius don't get along - an astrology bullshit actually.

Well, i guess u can say... or i'll admit that i didn't like u the first time. i enjoyed sitting alone actually. i was thirteen and i have my hormones racing and i hated your guts (and still do!) and also, i'm a Taurean... but funny... we did... eventually. Although 'charming' your way into my life wasn't at all how it happened. it was due to my sensitivity and my kind heart and also out of sympathy. LOL... no, it was actually because of our dorky taste in music. Aishah, we ought to thank BSB, NSync, Take5 and the Moffatts. Yeah, we go out to their gigs and all... so thats why we became closer and closer.

Although years passed and also we fell in and out of our friendship... also, we grew apart due to taking our own course. Well, it doesnt mean literally grew apart. our taste in music certainly got better although no longer the same. taste in men... taste in clothing... and Sagis are compatible to Geminis and Leos because they are Fire and Air sign... unlike me, Taurean... an earth element. Again... this is an astrology bullshit.

We got along well despite our astrological signs. So... don't believe in astrology! Believe in fate and destiny. I decide how my life is going to be. Where it may be a right or wrong choice, these are the friends that are with me all the way...

Jumper

2008-02-16T22:23:00.003+08:00

No i'm not talking about sweaters ok???

I saw Jumper today...
as dorky as i may sound, i find Hayden Christensen most good-looking in this movie. I'm so sorry i wasn't really fond of him or his acting in Star Wars. but after i saw Jumper, he's perhaps one of the finest actor on the planet.
there's a little spoof in the movie or perhaps i missed the part when Griffin introduced his name to David. Because they were teleporting about and suddenly, David calls him Griffin... ??
anyway, its a good movie. although has a little bad influence. after watching it, it makes u just want to teleport everywhere and dont want to walk...
a must see... i love the special FX particularly...

Dear CaCa Cabana n her JuaN...

2008-02-12T14:12:00.000+08:00

I’ve known the bride for approximately 10 years now. As years passed, our friendship grew and grew, with several petty fights and boyfriends along the way; it blossomed into something I’d like to call sisterhood.

The first time I saw them together, I suddenly notice how love can change women’s taste in men. Faiza used to drool over men like Josh Hartnett or Kimi Raikonnen. (Sorry, Faiza… I really have to reveal this)… and Awan is definitely someone they’re definitely not – someone who loves her for who she is. Faiza is an independent, bright young woman, whom I can see surviving on her own… she can live without Awan, most definitely… but however, she chose not too because she wants to be able to come home to someone. And in this case, she has chosen Awan.

Finding out that she was to be married soon, I wasn’t actually thrilled. I was pretty sure after this; a lot of people are going to be asking me when I am going to get married. It’s pretty stressful to me, Faiza… thanks to you! No, let me assure you that it wasn’t jealousy that she gets to get married first. It was because those days when we used to slumber-partied, jump on beds, having girl talks over a nice ice-blended coffee, hosting embarrassing birthdays at TGIF was coming to an end. It suddenly occurred to me, as the day of the wedding drew closer, I was going to lose my Caca Cabana… my Cendol.

Sorry, Awan… I’ll never be ready to release Faiza to you but knowing the kind of person you are, despite all other boys she’s been with, you’re the best candidate to complete my best friend’s life. Congratulations to both of you and may Allah bless your marriage with longevity and lots of children! All my love goes to both of you… Muahhhh!

FAIZA + AWAN's HOLY MATRIMONY

2008-02-04T02:44:00.000+08:00

if only the nikah nite pictures are with me... it wouldve completed my collection of awan's and faiza's wedding (well... so far. awan's side is yet to come!) anyway... as usual, the wedding of an ex-amanian girl is like a reunion for us.
i'd like to mention the usuals but i wouldnt wanna bore ya...
beatrice, whom i last saw back in 2001! it was amazing seven years! and she hasnt changed the slightest bit.
liza adrina and ainul was there... whom i meet once in a blue moon. ainul's getting married on the 1st of march btw...

here's a little snippet on the beautiful wedding...

l-r: amalia, ai ling, ainul, aishah, amalina, moi, fizah, nana...

With the bride and groom

moi and the gorgeous bride!

i'm going to miss those usual un-married girls hangouts... :')))

feliz año nuevo!

2008-01-05T16:29:00.000+08:00

it means happy new year! or selamat tahun baru (in malay). my resolution this year >>>------> maintain last year's resolution ;] . well, actually i dont have a resolution... when it's time to improve... just improve! why wait till new year? anyway, i wanted to post my spore trip first before i get on with my new year celebration anecdotes.

i went to spore on the 16th dec to 19th dec. with kak umy and adelin. it was spose to be work based but somehow, with 3 single, shopping-crazy girls... get the picture? but still, we did our work... somewhere along the way. we stayed in asphodel inn, located near farrer park mrt. i have to jot this down. i dont care if he ends up reading this blog... but the receptionist who welcomed us was so cute! i thought i was the only one who noticed how cute he was... but as we were out of his earshot, all 3 went, 'he's sssooo cute'. so can u imagine how cute he must be since 3 single girls ended up having a crush on him? we were sneaky enough to find out his name... must i tell u how? it's a sisterhood secret... i've sworn not to tell.

anyway, i bought a pair of black mng pants, cost me 32 SD (rm74) and to my utter disappointment, adelin told me her sister bought the exact same design in Malaysia for rm69! but i regained composure when she told me there was no black... only beige and brown. i got tops from forever21 and dorothy perkins, which i havent seen them yet in any shopping mall in malaysia. so i consider myself lucky. i bought CK euphoria perfume @ lucky plaza... cost me 78SD... when it shoulve cost me rm270 here in malaysia ;) dont ask me about the originality. as long as it's in the same bottle, smells exactly the same and long lasting... and cheap, of course, it's enough for me.also, got a pair of charles n keith sandals. i wanted a pair of black pumps with red soles... couldnt find any :(

kak umy shopped the most throughout our 4day stay. followed by me and adelin. well, between me and adelin, i think adelin won. on the last day, she bought like 3 bags! she's like a bag collector... but we're still amused by how many bags she owns. adelin owns a lomo fish-eye camera... the following photographs courtesy from her. thanks!

a giant is missing a shoe... and umy plans on taking it! (courtesy of adelin's lomo)adelin's magic lomo... at esplanadein front of our hotel... too bad he wasnt there ;)

@ esplanade@ clarke quay... pronounced as clarke 'key' and dont ask me why.

by the way, we made our own bracelets... made with love :D

During the new year's eve outting, since it was 31st of december, baskin robbins is having a 31% on all their ice creams. so i went to get a pint of chocolate mousse royale and cookies n cream. thinking i would finish it when nana and i go for a movie. apparently, there arent any movies that's appealing enough to us so we decided just to have a late dinner. by 10pm, my ice cream had melted. and i didnt want to eat a melted ice cream so i kept it aside and we kept on talking... catching up on each other's lives. so when it's almost midnight, we stood up and... i dont know who should i be angry with... either the paperbag that gave way or me, being too stupid not to notice the paperbag was soaked with melted ice. so the ice cream dropped from half of my height to the ground and it just splattered everywhere! arghhhh! it felt like my rm16+ went down the drain! waaaa...

i guess it was due to me wearing a tshirt that read 'little miss ditzy'. i wasnt really acting like what my tee said so... i guess one disaster was enough to dubbed me little miss ditzy... perhaps little miss spazz was more correct.
but nana and i had fun nevertheless... although the fireworks lasted only 25mins and getting out of the place took 3 bloody hours... we had fun.

with my best friend since i was 10! presenting >>>---> little miss late!

happy new year, peeps! may god bless us with success and prosperity!

i.am.legend.

2007-12-21T21:23:00.000+08:00

saw a dorothy perkins top...
cost rm89... thought once... twice... thrice...
then walked out...
empty handed...

saw 'i am legend'
poor sam... whom i thought was a male the whole time! (oops... bloopers!)
then left for home...

friends are hard to find...
but u may find them @ unlikely places...

thanks k.umy, adelin & dian for a fun afternoon.

Selamat Pengantin Baru, Kak Arfie!

2007-12-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

2nd December 2007~

i'm off to singapore this sunday, folks! thought of doing some shopping there but i was defeated by the mega/xmas sale here... three days in a row marathon! with 3 different people...

i gave away my old clothes to the flood victims. well if my maid dont beat them to it. haha... hopefully, the situation gets better for all for raya haji!

peace out~!

Cuti-cuti Malaysia

2007-12-12T01:48:00.000+08:00

Chiang Mai ___.

Ok, fine... i didnt actually go on holiday in Msia.

I LOVE travelling but i loathe flying. but i dont deny the beauty of gliding between layers of clouds. above the horizon, the clouds appeared like cotton candies... like u could bounce from one to another. however, when the plane flies through the thickness of the clouds, u find yourself temporarily lost - curious but yet nervous.

Chiang Mai's weather was average 20deg Celcius and that was already unbearable cool for me. initially, the trip was organized for my dad's golf group but somehow each member brought their families. most of the places we visit, our dads were absent. found better entertainment in puttings rather than shopping. nevertheless, mothers were still happy accompanied by the presence of credit cards and Thai bahts...

The hotel we're staying in is called Centara Duang Tawan. it doesnt have the most spectacular view but since you're only there just to sleep in, i guess it's quite okay. i'm always amused by products, which i'm familiar with, in other languages. like thai for instance. so i was rummaging through the snack bar in the room and i saw this small packaging, which i thought were raisins and as i pick it up, it read 'durex'. i laughed my head off. it's funny that the business is legal there but i didnt know they emphasize on the 'safe sex' campaign. well, of course, i put the package back to where it was.

it's best that you visit chiang mai around november or sometime during the full-moon. because they have a full moon festival called the loy krathong. the day when we arrived happened to be that day of celebration but they were still preparing for it. as the night comes, u can see the lights all over the streets and even up in the sky. they lit up this lantern and we make a wish and release it to the sky. the lantern is some sort like a hot-air balloon. so they have hundreds of them in the sky. they look like yellow stars, drifting lazily across. and also, they are fireworks and firecrackers everywhere.

we did more shopping than visiting. there's a night market located very nearby. the market opens everyday from 6pm to 2am! and it stretches out as far as the street goes. and i've never seen so many tourists from so many different countries at one place and everyone was so friendly. we visited the elephant farm, which i find rather amusing since i think it's something that you cant find in other countries. i rode one and i was strapped to seat on it and i still couldnt balance but the trainer was just sitting on its head, without any help from harnesses, only with the support of his knee and the elephant's ears. the elephant show was amazing. it's a must-go.

as much as i love chiang mai and travelling, as the plane descended, i realized i underestimate my own country.

there's no place like home :)))

i took this picture :D that's why i aint in it. got a huge compliment from a nice british lady ;DDD

yum!!!!

TOODLES!!!

Haih... bertunang dah kawan aku ni...

2007-11-05T01:51:00.000+08:00

Kawanku dulu rambut pendek ala tomboy

Kawanku tak lama dulu lompat2 atas katil ngan aku

Kawanku kini hidupnya hampir sempurna... Masya Allah :))))) Syukur kepada Allah atas rezeki-Nya...

Semoga jodoh berkekalan sehingga akhir hayat... amin

James Morrison - The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore

2007-11-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

I've been twisting and turning,
In a space that's too small.
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.

Well I can't explain why it's not enough,
Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.
It's the better thing to do,
It's time to surrender,
It's been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don't fit anymore,
Pieces don't fit here anymore.

You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That's breaking my skin.
Well I'll hide all the bruises,
I'll hide all the damage that's done.
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone.

Raya @ TTDI

2007-10-31T21:36:00.000+08:00

friends since pre-teen, mid-teen, post-teen ;)

in between blues, eh aishah?

if i had worn high heels, i'll be equal ;)

SUGE!!!

2007-10-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

Dimaklumkan bahawa 5 orang penyelidikUniversiti Malaya telah menyertai pameran British Invention Show 2007(BIS) yang diadakan di AlexandraPalace, Wood Green, London, pada 17 -20 Oktober 2007. Rombongan penyelidikUniver siti Malaya ini telah diketuai oleh Prof. Madya Dr. Mohd Sahar Yahya selaku Ketua Unit PerkembanganPenyelidikan (UPPP)Hasil daripada penyertaan pertandingan reka cipta tersebut, penyelidikUniversiti Malaya telah berjaya meraih10 anugerah.

Lebih gemilang lagi, penyelidik kita iaitu Encik Asrul Mahjuddin Ressang Aminuddin dari Fakulti Alam Bina telah berjaya meraih anugerah tertinggi yang ditawarkan di BIS 2007 iaitu Diamond (Special Awardfor Earth Science) menerusi projek penyelidikan beliau bertajuk SandwichBrick - Sustainable Construction. Penyelidik bersama bagi projektersebut adalah Prof. Madya Sreenivasaiah Purushothama Rao. Projek tersebut turut memenagi anugerah Gold. Selain itu, Dr. Mohd Hamdi Abd Shukordari Fakulti Kejuruteraan juga telah meraih anugerah Double Gold (SpecialAward for Industry) menerusi projek penyelidik an beliau bersama Dr. S.Ramesh, Tan Chou Yong & Iis Sopyan yang bertajuk Development of High Toughness Synthetic Bioceramic for Bone ImplantTechnology. Disamping itu, projek penyelidikan tersebut turut memenagi anugerah Gold. Senarai penuh anugerah yang dimenangi oleh Universiti Malaya adalah seperti berikut

Diamond (Special Award for EarthScience)
Projek Penyelidikan: Sandwich Brick -Sustainable Construction
Ketua Penyelidik: Asrul Mahjuddin Ressang Aminuddin (Fakulti Alam Bina)
Penyelidik Bersama: Prof. Madya Sreenivasaiah Purushothama Rao

GoldProjek
Penyelidikan: Sandwich Brick -Sustainable Construction
Ketua Penyelidik: Asrul MahjuddinRessang Aminuddin (Fakulti Alam Bina)
Penyelidik Bersama: Prof. Madya Sreenivasaih Purushothama Rao

Dan lain-lain...
cuma yg nak dikatakan di sini... sepanjang 4 tahun aku belajar ngn SP Rao... baru aku tahu name penuh dia... terharu sekejap ngn penemuan ni... isk isk...

A Degree Holder Finally!

2007-10-15T12:29:00.001+08:00

goodbye, Bachelor Sc in Architecture a.k.a. Architecture part 1

hello, Bachelor of Architecture a.k.a. Architecture part 2